I Hate You

4.

Malaysia

I woke up to the sound of food cooking. I looked over at the time to see it being 9:00.

I got out of bed and went in the bathroom to brush my teeth and wash my face. Once finished i went downstairs to see him placing down a plate.

"Mornin' sleeping beauty". I shook my head as I smirked.

"Mornin". I sat down in front of my plate and begin eating. "mmm". I hummed as I took the first bite. This was actually pretty good.

"Good right?". He asked. I nodded.

"Yeah, i honestly thought it was gonna taste like shit". He fake pouted.

"Damn, thanks for sparring my feelings". I chuckled.

"No problem". He playfully nudged me as we continued to eat, making small conversation. When we finished. I ended up doing the dishes since he cooked.

"You got anything planned for today?" He asked as i dried off my hands.

"Yeah, I was gonna visit my brother and my mom. Make sure they are okay". He soon got this huge grin on his face.

"Can I come?". He asked. I shook my head quickly.

"Um. No". I said trying to dismiss the conversation by walking out to go get ready. He grabbed my arm and pulled me back.

"Please?". He puppy dog eyed me. That was my number one weakness but he didn't need to know that.

"N-No, let me go please". I struggled to get out his grip but that wasn't happening so i gave up.

"I won't do anything bad, I promise". I sighed.

"It's not you i'm worried about". I mumbled. He looked at me confused.

"Then...what's the problem?". He asked. I shook my head.

"Fine you can go. Don't say I didn't warn you". he hugged me tight then let me go to go to the guest bathroom and get dressed.

I went in the main bathroom and started to get my shower water ready. God, I hope she cleaned herself up like she promised she would.

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Once we were dressed. I gave him the address and we were on our way.

When we pulled up, the place looked just the same as it has when i left. Empty, lonely, and broken. I took a deep breath and got out the car, with Quees trailing behind me.

I knocked on the door and within a couple minutes my brother answered the door with a sad but happy expression.

"Laysia! I missed you!". He grabbed me into a hug, which i gladly accepted and kissed his cheek.

"Hey Anthony, how are you?" I asked. He shrugged.

"I'm straight. Just chillin". I nodded.

"I feel you..where's mom?" I asked, almost hesitant to ask. His mood automatically dropped as he motioned us to come in.

As son as we walked in. The stink of weed and liquor filled my nose. I flinched at the familiar smell.

I walked to the back rooms to hear rap music, blasting from her room. I knocked on the door gently then opened it to see my mom doing heroine. My eyes watered as she smiled weakly at me.

"Oh great baby your here, Come help me tighten this band, will you?". I shook my head. finally loosing my last bit of respect for her.

"Mommy..You said you would change for me, for me and Anthony. What happened to that?". I asked with a desperate tone. She rolled her eyes.

"Well not every promise is kept. That's life baby girl". I shook my head.

"I will no longer claim you as my mom. I'm done with this shit Sharain. I tried so hard to stick by your side and this is all I get? How can you want someone to help you but you can't even help yourself!".

She laughed in my face making me even more angry. I don't know what came over me but I was so angry. I punched her hard in the face, having blood gush from her nose.

"You bitch!". She yelled.

"Fuck You! I'm done with your bullshit. Die slowly hoe!". I yelled. I walked out, making sure to punch a hole in the wall.

"Anthony pack your shit, we leaving". I told him through gritted teeth. I was so mad, any and everything could piss me off at this point.

"Malaysia I-". I cut him off mid- sentence.

"Don't. Don't even say shit. Just shut the fuck up and sit there until He finish packing". I said with hate dripping from my tone. I honestly didn't mean to say that but I was mad and didn't want to hear anything.

A few minutes later. Anthony came out with the little stuff he had and we left out.

I made sure to slam the door as I saw Some people peep out the window to see what was going on.

I sat in the passenger seat and stared out the window trying my best to calm myself down.

Few minutes later, we reached the house. I unlocked the door and went upstairs to my room, closing and locking the door.

I went in my drawer by the bed and pulled out my stash of weed. I rolled my self a nice sized blunt and drifted off into my happy place....