Depression and Love Don't Mix Well (Jack and Finn fanfic)

Chapter 22

Finn's POV:
I have been kind of down lately. Michayla has been so supportive. I have been kind of distancing myself from my mom. I am just sad and don't know how to cope. Today gonna little heated with Michayla though to be honest she has been supportive but things have been a little tense. I have been so stressed and I don't know why. It must've been going on for a while now and I never noticed cause she pulled me into my room and said

"Finn what's going on? You aren't your typical self lately, you're always sad, you rarely talk to me? I know your parents are going through a divorce but there are people here for you."

"Where is this coming from love? Nothing is going on, I'm still me, I have never been better, I talk to you all the time, and as for the divorce I'm over it."  I say trying to get out of this conversation

"Finn I'm not stupid. There is something going on tell me." She said looking at me intently

"Nothing is going on Michayla. Why are you being so persistent?"

"Because I care. I know I'm not the only one who has noticed you have changed." She says looking hurt

"People change Michayla!" I said raising my voice

"Not the way you have. You're more tense, more angry, short tempered, you're more quiet than usual, you never listen to what anybody has to say anymore, you're a completely different person now! I didn't accept any promises for them to be broken. I accepted it because I care, because I love you, because I want to be here for you when you are so low and you feel like you can't get out I am here to help you. It's not always the other way around. You have me here asking holding my hand out so why not take it and hold on to it instead of falling deeper and deeper in a hole. I went in that hole Finn. I went there and came back multiple times and when I finally met you and got out of that hole I promised myself I would never let anyone ever go into that hole if I could help it. So please let me help you Finn." She said looking at me holding my hand

I'm scared to tell her that I need help and I am scared. I don't know why cause she's really been the only person I could tell something to and they actually listen. I love her so much and I don't want to hurt her I just don't know how I feel anymore.

"I love you so much Michayla it physically hurts. I don't know what I feel right now I just feel numb and I want you to help me I just don't know how to say it or what to say. I'm literally so confused in life and I hate it." I said

"Look at me Finn. All you had to say was I need help." She said hugging me

"I love you." I said kissing the top of her head

"I love you too." She said

"Thank you for being here for me. Even if I am an ass sometimes." I said

"Hey it's payback from whenever I was bitchy towards you. All is fair in love and war." She said making me smile.
"I appreciate you cracking and talking to me."

"Well I always wanted you to help me it's just I never knew how to tell you. I've never felt about anyone like this. I thought you would be mad or annoyed." I said

"Finn I could never get mad or annoyed by you with something like that. You mean to much to me to be be sad and upset. Smile. Move. Function. Do something besides being sad. Do you want to go to my house?" She asks

"Yeah. Yeah I'd kinda like that anywhere but here." He said getting his penny board and walking behind me out the door.

We penny boarded all the way to Michayla's house which luckily isn't far from mine. It takes 15 minutes on foot and 5-10 minutes in car depend upon traffic. I'm so glad Michayla got me out of the house. When we got to her house we said hello to her mother and told her what happened. We all talked for a bit and then Michayla's mom went upstairs while she and I hung out in the living room. She and I talked some more about random things and then I picked on her and she returned the favor. She's so cute. I love her. I actually feel better being here with her since I talked about my problems. I could never thank her enough for always being here. We watched some movies and then snuggled. This is the best medicine anyone can have. I have my girl right here next to me and I love her with everything I got. She is truly the best. She fell asleep eventually. I didn't bother to wake her up so I let her sleep and then I wrote a note and walked him cause I didn't want to feel like I was barging in on her mom. I walked into a bar like a block away from my house, to get some drinks and that's when I saw Sarah. I tried to turn around and walk back but it was too late she saw me.