"Endearment"
You told me few days ago
That you cannot live any longer
You even asked me a stupid question
“Would you stay with me until I die?”
Holding a tear drop from the heaven
Of course I would yes
Why did you make me cry?
Why did you have to ask me such a thing?
Don’t you know that I love you more than myself?
Don’t you understand that I would even marry you,
Even if you can’t stay with me until I die?
That’s how much I love you.
The first day I met you,
You were smiling with those adorable cheeks,
Laughing like crazy with your best friends,
Randomly talking to other people,
Including me
That was the moment I fell for you
I didn’t know that you did too
I thought you liked her
After a while, I found out that you didn’t
How stupid of me to think that
You were my first boyfriend,
I was your seventh girlfriend
I know what they say
Just like you know it too
“Never marry your first boyfriend.”
Yet, here I am, floating down the aisle
Looking at those glittering diamonds
How can you be gentle,
When you are dying every moment inside?
Just as I do when I see you suffer
Did you know that I cry every night?
I know you do because, you always say to me:
“Never cry just because of me.”
With your sad, agonized face
But it only made me cry more
I thought you did not know that I wanted to be enamored,
By you of course,
The love of my life
I know it is really an old script
I also know that it is you
The time is awful, don’t you agree my love?
It has take you away from me!
I never expected that this would happen to me
I cannot indeed understand what you have said
Why did you have to say that?
“Please be happy after I die, my love.”
That was the saddest moment of my life
The love of my life, saying to me to move on after he dies
You have left me with deep sorrow in my heart
You have left peacefully
I do not wish to falsely accuse you for it is not your fault
I love you more than words can describe,
More than I can express everyday,
More and more each moment,
Everyday is not enough to tell you
Like they say, youth will never comeback,
I have learned that even love can’t comeback sometimes
Still, he left me memories of a lifetime
A memory that I will cherish,
Forever for sure
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My Odd Consciences
PoetryI wrote these poem when I was 13-14, I write a lot about how I was in pain, which in retrospect is not much. But at the time it felt like the end of the world :o
