What does this mean for us...

Letting go!

Part 4 don't read unless you haven't red part 1 2&3 hope you enjoy I'm so sorry it has took this long been so busy*

CHARLIE POV
"Omg,Ruby I'm so sorry baby-i-i-er" I was lost for words I didn't know what to say! "Me and brax are going to leave you and casey to talk,I'm so sorry Ruby" I said.
"No,don't leave me mum,I need you" Ruby cried!
"Ok baby I'm not going anywhere" I shouted as I ran over to my baby girl hugging her tightly!

RUBY POV
I sobbed in Charlie's arms for wha seemed to be hours! " I don't know wha I'm meant to do now Charlie" I whispered "you don't have to know yet baby" Charlie kindly said!
"Sid said the baby's really small so I wouldn't have to go through birth if I didn't want to I could just have a tube or something tha gets the baby out,I wasn't really listening" I said "ok so wha do you want to do" Charlie asked!
"I'm giving birth to her she was my baby I need to meet her" I sobbed!
"She's going to be really small and sick" I also added!
"She's in peace now baby,the sooner you let go is the sooner you can try and deal with this" Charlie said!
"How can I deal with this,what if I can never get past this" I cried!
"You will baby I promise you"Charlie said.

CHARLIE POV
Ruby had cried herself to sleep in my arms so I rolled her on her bed and covered her up,I kissed her on the head as I walked out of the room in silence! I just broke down I couldn't bare my baby being in so much pain, as I sobbed down to the floor brax ran over to me and held me in his arms "it's going to be ok Charlie, we will get past this! I promise" brax gently said.
I couldn't bring myself to speak so I continued to cry!
"That's my grandchild,she's dead my grandchild is dead and my daughter has to give birth and burry her in the next few weeks,w all the arrangements I can't brax I can't do it!!" I sobbed.
"I'll help you baby,what ever you need! She was a little fighter and she held on for as long as she could but she had to let go Charlie,it's nobody's fault" brax
said! I calmed myself down and picked my drained body up and dragged myself in to Ruby's room to find her awake and holding the scan of her unborn child!
"Hey,how are u" I asked!
"I don't really know" Ruby said wiping a tear from her pale face! "I Havnt even met her yet but I know she's beautiful" Ruby said!
"I know she is to,like her mummy" I said,holding myself back from just breaking down right before Ruby's eyes!
"Ruby hi," Sid said before taking a long pause! "Do you want to give birth" he asked!
"Yes I need to" Ruby cried!
"When we could do it in the next hour just out you In early labour if u like" Sid kindly said,trying to be as understanding as possible.
"Ye that's ok" Ruby said!
"Ruby are you sure that's not to soon" I asked!
"No the sooner the better"Ruby sternly said.
"Ok I'll be back soon" Sid said.

45 MINUTES LATER!!

RUBY POV
Sid was back in what seemed like seconds!
"You sure your ready" Sid asked
"Yes,can we just get it over with" I shouted!
Sid induced me into early labour he gave me a needle in my leg and I began to feel pain "ahhhh" I screamed "it's ok rubes" casey said as he held my hand "come on rubes" Charlie said "ahhhhhhhhh" i screamed again as I started to swet and tears fell down my face my breathing was heavily the pain was so horrible "push" "come on ruby push" the midwife shouted sid stood there putting more needles in my arm taking some blood I pushed as hard as I could while Charlie and casey held my hand through it all "one more push one more" I could hear "ahhhhhhhhhhh" I screamed as I pushed "she's here" "oh she's beautiful" the midwife  said she was already dead so there was nothing anyone could do "they placed her in my arms and it all became so real that I was about to loose my gorgeous baby girl! "You can have as much Time as u need with her" sid said "no amount of Time will be enough" I said "hey rubes come on look she's gorgeous and she's so small "I'm a nan" Charlie said  " ye I know" I said I had only held her for a few seconds and I loved her more than life she was apart of me and I was about to loose her! A few hours passed and Charlie casey and brax had all held her "rubes it's been hours" Sid said "we're gunna have to take her soon" he said "we're does she go when u take her" I asked "don't think about that rubes just spend the last few minutes you have left with your baby" Charlie said "just give her half an hour mate" brax said "ok" he said "we will wait outside rubes" case said "ok" I said
I was now on my own with my baby and it give me time to tell her how I really felt!
"Hey, your gorgeous and precious! I never thought kids would be apart of my life and when I found out I was pregnant I thought my life was over but then it became more real, I have created you your the most amazing person in the world and even tho i will never get to meet you probably I know that I'll love u until I take my last second on earth!" I said while wiping tears from my face!
"I have a name for you princess! Your my storing little princess so I have decided to call you hope because you gave me all the hope in the world to continue with this pregnancy and it's the best thing I did" I said while sobbing!
"I don't know how I'll get past this but aslong as your by my side helping me and giving me hope I'll do it, now it's time for are little moment to be over and I have to let you go" I said as I sobbed!
"Ruby we need to take her you have had her for hours and hours" sid said!
"I know!" I sadly cried!
Sid came over and took my baby out of my arms I felt like he took my heart I was in so much pain!
"Hey, rubes how u holding up" case said as he walked in.
"Not great, it's hit me now I'll never see her first smile her first laugh or hear her first word or be there on her first day of school or moan at her for dating a biker guy with tattoos who drinks bear" I said while laughing and crying at the same time!
"Rubes, u can get past this" case said while holding my hand !
"I know, it's just going to be hard but I'll have hope by my side" I said.
"Hope?" Casey asked !
"Ye that's what I decided to name her hope" I said!
"It's beautiful" he said as he came over hugging me!