Finding Hope (Lesbian Story) Two

Catastrophe

      Nene's View

     It's just my luck the that the one night I decide to get out I'd run into Jai. That girl she was with looked familiar. I can't put my finger on it , but I will. Her little fake ass smile can get tipsy and fall off because I didn't think it was cute. Little do she know I wanted to smack the smile right off her face.  I don't know what's up with her and Jai but I will find out but I do know they not together. That much was obvious from the phone call Jai received and how she spoke to the caller.

    She has a girlfriend.

     Its been barely six months and she's already moved on, I couldn't get the fact that she has a girlfriend. Just looking at her I can tell she's happy, I mean she deserves happiness so as much as I love her I won't ruin her happiness, I mean not on purpose.  Although I kinda feel dumb for just up and moving here hoping to make things work, but then again moving  here wasn't just for her it was the best decision for me and the twins. Its weird at times because the only friend I have here is Mecca.

      Without the twins I'd truly be alone, it really don't bother me them kids mean the world to me. People say having kids young will ruin your life well my kids saved my life, and that's an understatement because I felt like my life was done for it but the moment I saw their eyes and heard their cries I couldn't do it. Before them I was reckless and cared for no one, I'd never been in-love. How could I love someone when no one ever gave me love, but the day I gave birth I knew what true love really was. I'd die for my babies to bad all parents didn't feel the same. As I continued walking around downtown letting my thoughts flow enjoying the fresh air I noticed it was getting late. I missed my babies and I knew it was time to head home.

     Mecca thought it would be good for me to explore the city a bit and she watch my children. I hesitated at first, but then she finally persuaded me to do so, so I got up and got dressed. I really didn't know where to go being that I only heard about the city of Atlanta and not much more, she told me to check out Lenox mall and Downtown , Atlantic Station to be exact. She know damn well I'm not much of a fan of the malls, but I just thought to check it out. I might find something cute for the kids. 

     Sitting here I noticed something, I felt like it wasn't a coincidence that Jai and I ran into each other, I feel like Mecca knew Jai was going to be there and honestly I'm happy and a little upset that it happened. Part of me wanted to see Jai, but then again I wasn't ready. 

    Sighing I go up from my bed and looked out the window, I swear my eyes felt like it was going to pop out my sockets noticing who Salem is. 

     "That's the girl that was in the car that night!" I shook my head wondering why and the hell would Jai be hanging out with her. I begin to pace the floor, but stopped when my phone vibrated.

Mecca:  Jai would not stop talkin' about you. I feel like she gonna find out that we kept in touch this whole time. You know she's gon be mad. .  I mean correction. Upset.

     A smile grew on my face as I heard the kids laughing in the living room I turned my head towards the sound, but it soon stopped. Re-reading the text I laughed softly as she corrected herself on how Jai always claiming she not mad she'd upset, talking about 'Dogs get mad, and I'm not a dog.' 

Outgoing: Lol you crazy Mecca, but wat she been saying?

     I sat my phone down as I searched through my favorite online shops for a few things. I noticed my phone begin to ring so I answered without looking, " And Mecca oh my gosh she was lookin' good as fuck. Do you know what was goin' through my mine when I seen her. " I heard Jai , "Oh, I could only imagine." I put my phone on mute and laughed at Mecca. you can tell she tired and for once I can understand Jai can talk a lot, especially if it's about a love of hers.