Finding Hope (Lesbian Story) Two

The Great

Everything never turns out what you wanted to be. Life is like a game board you roll the dice and you take chances you didn't make a good choice are you land on a bad one. I can say that I'm going to make plenty of mistakes , like bringing Janae and Mecca to the same event as my ex-girlfriend Nene. After the night me and Janae had you would have thought it seemed like she brushed it off and everything was perfect.

No matter what I say to Nene she will always take her word over mine even if she's wrong. And I can see what she come from there is no harm in that. I honestly have a full heart and love Nene but at the moment I feel like I have to be with Janae. The next morning, afternoon and night had a sexual indecorous I woke up to her fussing , nagging , cussing and everything it was like coming to story.

I feel like I deserve everything that came my way even the fact that I got pushed into salt chloride water by my ex-girlfriend. Nene ain't talk to me for three days after honestly say it will hurt and it does hurt to have two women that I love so deeply to feel the need to brush me off like I was some piece of trash in the street.
"Jai I'm hungry. I want Waffle House" I was soon interrupted by Jalissa whining, "What happened to you politely asking? Let's ask momz babygirl." she crossed her arms as I picked her up and walked to Janae on the phone , I hear a loud laughter and I already knew it was Heaven. She looked up at Jalissa and I wondering why we're standing near her. Or at least that's what I'm getting from her annoyed facial expression, mainly for me.
"Hold on Heav', . .what?" She raised her eyebrows. I licked my lips opening my mouth to speak , but Jalissa bet me to it." I want Waffle House!" she shouted. I smirked and adjusted her on me , "Ain't nothing funny Jaiana and okay baby go put on some clothes. " I placed Jalissa down and stood there waiting for Janae to get off the phone. She wasn't paying me any mind so I turned on my PlayStation3 and begin to play Grand Theft Auto until Jalissa was ready. Soon came quick because within' five minute I'm inti the game she gets off the phone. The warm, caramel color scheme in the room could easily melt from how hard she was staring at the side of my face, but I just kept on ignoring her and continue to play the game.

Jalissa's View

I am so tired of my mommies fighting. I just want to see them smile, to ignore them I just do what Jai told me to do for anything at all ; turn on music and smile. Walking to my dresser I pulled out my white tink top as mommy calls it and my teal shorts! Teal is my favorite color, curly told me that's her third favorite color.
I start to dance around to Kali Uchis, I don't know how to say her last name and Jai likes her.

Putting on my clothes I begin to lay on the bed as the song goes off and I can hear Jai and mommy fussing again. I sighed thinking about being with Ra'len and Ra'Onna. They make me laugh , I smile thinking about how me and Ra'Onna planned a splash attack on Ra'len when he was counting to find us.
Soon as he was done we splashed him before he could turn around. I laughed covering my mouth his hair was dripping, I was scared because their mommy started to fuss at us. She's so pretty and nice, she was just scared for Ra'len.
Ra'Onna told me she can tell I like Ra'len, but it's okay because she told me she likes me. She said she can see me as her sister. After she told me that I smiled and hugged her as she hugged me back.
I felt my eyes getting low when the ocean sounds came on, I couldn't help it. Maybe it can help me not hear mommy and Jai fussin'.

Janae's View

I don't know what's got into Jai lately but it's like she tryna make everything go her damn way and it's not. For one she let that bitch Salem just take control of her and what we are as a family. I really don't get her sometimes, all she do is tryna make people happy I get it but then that's when you draw a boundary line and please you and your family.
I really feel like shit after what Nene said.

"No she wasn't she was gonna hold it in just like she held in the fact that she wanna be a family with me and my children"

I kept my head down and looked up at Jai with vemon in my eyes like. "Shut the fuck up Jaiana!" She stood there with her hands in her pockets as she sighed. Her hair stood in that natural fluffy wild curly fro and an non-emotion facial expression.
"Why the fuck do you continue to talk like you making anything better?" I folded my arms and looked up at her brown complexion as she looked down at me with those bambi dark brown eyes. "Baby can you just rela-" "No I'm not gonna relax Jai because you are nothing but bullshit. You come and feed me all this sweet talking and shit but you don't even care about me."