The girl in black

Chapter 3

A/N:well this chapter shall blow your mind to pieces
Enjoy
Xoxo

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Karen
He seems to be nice enough but why would someone just allow you to live with them
I began tracing my lips unconsciously,closing my eyes and drifting back into the memory of how he claimed my lips,how he claimed me.

No.

He is probably a man whore anyway with no memory of us kissing,he is rich and handsome so why would he waste time with a homeless,broke loser like me.
People will always use you,but treat them with kindness,I could hear my mothers voice in my head,yeah I know that statement sounds cruel but only because it's the truth.
She was my everything till the day she died,she was beautiful and I was her favorite,well only because I was the only child
I never knew my father and till today I don't want to know him,he left my mother the day she gave birth to me,he asked her to abort me
I remember when I was five years of age I heard my mother arguing with a man and when I came out to see she told me to go back into my room and she locked the door of my room,I heard shouting and a man saying "get rid of the fucking thing,than you and I can be together"
She told him to get out of the house and that's when I heard her scream,I began crying and praying to God for him to protect her.
A few minutes after it was silent and I heard the door open,it was my mother she looked hurt and when I looked behind her the man was bleeding on the floor
He was dead.
She hugged me and told me don't worry about it baby mommy is here,she was my everything so I just hugged her back and agreed to everything she had said,she eventually called the police and told them it was self defense.
She worked overtime to pay for everything but she always made time for me,I loved her
Till one day all of that killed her,she got a heart attack and died in my arms when I was 16 years old.
I was taken to a horrible foster home,so I ran away and till today I lived on my own.

Actually survived on my own.
I still wonder who that man was that hurt my mother,was it my father
When I asked her she would never tell me.

I miss her.

But that was my past and it was what made me stronger as a women,I never wanted to be like my mother but she inspired me in other ways and disappointed me in others.

She raised you kare,so love her for that at least.
"I do love her for that"I thought out loud not not noticing someone at the door starring at me,I jumped up in fright grabbing a pillow holding it against my chest in self defense which would not help in a hostile situation but hey I was scared okay.

I heard a mans laugh,Coltan the fucker did not knock
This is his house you know

Yeah I know brain I know .

"Oh it's you,I thought it was-"
"What a murderer "he says with a smirk on his face
"Yeah kinda"I reply blushing like a foolish child.

He continues speaking and walks closer to me sitting beside me on the bed and pulls the pillow away slowly
"I assure you I will not kill you but I can do many other pleasurable things to you"
"I don't want any pleasurable things from you thank you very much,you have given me more than enough"
"Have I?"
This man is going to kill me,I can feel my body getting hotter,this is something else.
I stand up and move away from the bed to the door
"Thank you for gracing me with your presence your honor now may you please leave"I say in the most sarcastic way ever
He looks at me and just as he is about to exit he grabs me licks my lips,yeah licks it and whispers in my ear
"Next time I won't just lick your lips baby"
I instantly feel the heat travel up and down my body like electricity,I move away from him and just before I answer him back he walks away
The slick bustard. 

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I had applied for many jobs so the sooner I had enough money the sooner I could leave that place
It had been a month since I have been staying there and so far coltan has not been bothering me thank God.
But I kind of miss his touch.
No you don't..

I should begin looking for an apartment for now even if it is small,it's been too long.
He wouldn't miss me anyway
Wait why do I care,I should at least  tell him,I owe him that much.

I get home and I see him laying on the couch,his hair messy and he still looks good.

"Excuse me "
He turns around and his eyes widen as he sees me,he looks in a daze.
"Hey baby,what's up"
"I need to talk to you"
A concerned look appears on his beautiful face
"Is everything okay?"
I move closer to him and sit next to him but move close to the edge leaving a space between us just to be safe

"I might move out next week or so,I got a job and I am looking for an apartment too"

Instantly he laid back and finger combed his hair out of a look of frustration
"Why,don't you like it here with me"
"N-no it's not that it's just that I need to get a place you have done enough for me"
He lays his head on his shoulder,starring at me with those piercing green eyes
And plum red lips
"Karen"
I chocked,he had never called me that ever!
"Y-y-yes"
"Don't leave me alone "
I couldn't believe him,he wanted me to stay longer but I can't do that
"I can't do so ,but thank you for everything"
I stood up and began to walk off when I felt a hand grab my arm and pull me back gently,he pulled me against him and spoke again
"Please stay with me tonight than"
I was hypnotized,I answered and followed him like a lost puppy.
"Yes,no I mean no,I can't stay Coltan"
He let go of my arm and he stepped away,with a sad tone in his voice he said
"Oh it's okay I guess everyone leaves me"
He had sadness in his eyes and it tore me apart,I knew that look
It was the same look I gave myself everyday in the mirror
I hugged him and his head rested on my shoulder even though he was taller
"I am sorry goodbye Coltan" I whispered and let him go walking away
What just happened...