The girl in black

Chapter 6

A/N:hope my readers are enjoying this story so far
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Xoxo
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Karen
Coltan was once again in my life and for some odd reason I was happy about this new turn of events.
I need to visit him today but I should go later I feel a little unsettled with the situation at hand,he draws me in so deep I feel high and at an instant I can't get enough of it,damn drug
I AM SCREWED
Well my best friend met him so that's a start right
A start of what kare
"I don't know brain you tell me",I say out loud in a sarcastic way to myself 
I should really stop talking to myself but hey I know I am crazy so I have the right to speak to myself as much as I want.

Camiln for some reason is not being inquisitive at all,well she did not wake up yet so I will just enjoy the silence while it lasts
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Here we go silence gone,it was good while it lasted...

"Good morning Ms Kare missing your secret almost dead boyfriend yet"she says with a childish smirk on her face
"He is not my boyfriend and he was never a secret you just never asked"I reply briskly
"Well sue me for not asking about a hot guy you lived with for a while that is rich and in love with you,my brain didn't think of asking such a interesting story"
In love,as if he is in love with me that would be the day,I mean rich boy and hot and a smart ass, LOVE is not in his penis vocabulary.
"Okay Cam can you just get done and eat so we can go see my not boyfriend"
"Fine"she answers like a little child being told what to do
We are finally off to see Coltan,my heart is beating fast and all the memories are rushing back in my head making me feel the heat rise up my chest onto my neck and instantly turns my cheeks red.
Blushing just because of a brisk memory.
The danger that Coltan is,is unexplainable but I just can't let him go right now he needs me and let's face it I owe him I mean he took care of me when I was homeless and drunk as hell,i couldn't even walk straight and God knows I couldn't even handle my own body weight,I felt like a bowling ball on steroids.
HORRIBLE
HUNGOVER
And violated well almost at least.
We finally reach the hospital and I quickly climb out of the car and walk,so fast I even scared myself a bit.
I looked like a child running to candy just a different type,man candy.
Cam was a bit behind me and I could hear her saying slow down but I just couldn't stop,my legs were moving on their own.
My body took over my souls will for Coltan.
I got in and went straight to his room,I saw him and he was asleep he had this beautiful Greek god face that was nicely shown by the little strands of sunlight showing through the blinds showcasing the blonde strands in his dark brown hair and long eyelashes that looked like it was meant for a girls,his pink plumb lips with perfectly sculpted outer lining and his pure lightly natural tanned skin,as smooth as a babies bottom
All I could do was stare and I soon found myself touching his face,cupping it in my hand and just rubbing it slightly with my thumb,he is so handsome even bordering on beautiful actually.
He suddenly gave off a heavy breath and I got a fright and quickly let go,I didn't want to wake him he needed his sleep so I went out and told Cam she should go home I would wait for him till he woke up and she continually refused until I told her she remain hungry,the last question she asked me is how I would get home and I told her I would take the bus after that she disappeared faster than the flash himself,berry has got some competition.
6 hours and the guy is still asleep,but I would wait for him
My Coltan.
He was always nice to me but the idea of love never rushed through my head when I was with him,it feels like a year has not even passed the minute I saw him it felt like a year was one day and just a few hours of the day was not spent with him,that feeling scared me but I keep reminding myself that I can handle the situation when really I know I can't.

My past with him was a rough ride but one with memories that could easily become an obscurity in my near future with another man,it was misty and dark but I liked the darkness that he had even though it was hidden from me regardless the opportunity of emotion,a brick wall is was he seems to be,a bit harder then me but he said he had a past that was very dark which obviously captured my attention but he just wouldn't let go and I really tried I even wore his cologne which he loved on me and I tried to be sexy for him but no luck,complete isolation and a wall made of something harder then titanium.
We had a complicated but simple relationship,he was the guy and I was the girl I was weak for him and he was weak for me,I loved his touch and he loved everything else that was on me and definitely in me,but he did not explore me at all I just would not allow it.
See he never made love he fucked and I was the type that was completely against meaningless sex.
Believe it or not I had a very high level or resistance but I don't think I do right now,his vulnerability and innocence at the moment just makes me feel like giving him my all.
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I finally set a gaze on him and he was awake staring at me blankly like he didn't recognize me I felt myself begin wondering if I should be here but than I reminded myself that we kissed so it must have meant something right,or was he a bit to high on meds.
"Hey so you came to see me again" I heard his voice breaking through my dark bubble
"Yeah I had to check on you"I replied
He had this look in his eyes like he was sad
What's wrong with him,is he hiding something from me.
"Are you okay Coltan you seem-"
"Different"he finished my sentence
"Yes,well I have not seen you in a year and I have just be wondering what happened to you"
His eyes became darker and he just looked at me as if I had uttered the Devils name one to many times,I took his hand and held it in comfort but honestly I did it for myself I needed the comfort more than he did.
"Coltan oh my God what happened to you"I heard a women's voice break the silence,I looked up and I saw a young beautiful girl with long blonde hair and perfect milky skin,red lipstick and a supermodel body.
Before I knew it she stuck her lips on his I felt my heart fall down to my tummy and I could feel the mixed emotions of anger and pain consume me.
"Hi I am Pamla I am Coltans wife to be thank you so much for taking care of him"
His wife to be,what the hell Coltan.
Is this what he meant by goodbye.
He kissed me.
Why.
"Hi I am Karen,well it's a pleasure helping I guess I will be on my way it was nice meeting you Pamla"
I put up a fake smile after that horrid sentence that tasted like venom in my mouth.
I stood up and looked at Coltan with anger that I hope he understood,he had a fiancé and what was I his fall back,hell no.
This was my Que.

Goodbye forever this time.
Coltan...