The girl in black

Chapter 7

Karen
I felt my heart get ripped out of my chest again it felt as if I had lost my mind,my head was spinning I didn't know what to do,his fiancé.

I got on the bus and just shut down on my way home,I finally arrived and got up to the apartment,I found Camlin sitting on the couch and her eyes instantly fell on me when she saw I looked like all the blood had been drained from my body.
"You okay Kare"
"He has a fiancé and she came to fetch him,she was beautiful I must say"I said to her in a drones voice
She immediately ran to me and gave me a hug but yet I felt nothing there was no emotion in me i felt dead.
***
Coltan
Pamla what the hell are you doing,this girl is insane
"Pamla what the hell are you insane,just take me home"
"What Coltan I should be your wife and who was the whore I mean don't you remember when I gave you the best sex you have ever had,I am better than her and I can treat you when ever you want something I can do it all for you Coltan
I came all the way here to find you and why didn't you call me to pick you up I mean I am your fiancé"
"You're not my fiancé,you were just a girl I fucked one to many times so please stop this madness and stop ruining my life just take me home"
She looked at me with the crazy eye, I was basically paralyzed and she was about to rape me,the girl was crazy but in bed she was amazing
"Come on you love me and you know it honey,let's go home so I can treat you to something nice you have been through so much"
Damn it!
Karen,she must think I just used her.
*
On my ride home with Pamla I couldn't stop thinking about her and our kiss,but love is not in my vocabulary anyway so it's back to square one back to sleeping with anything that can give it good.
Pamla was totally crazy but she was of good use to me she gave me sex when I desired,the perfect fuck Buddy until she became obsessed with me,I met her through a business meeting she looked like a good girl during working hours but damn she can do more than just talk business with her mouth.
Absolute nut job,but she is all I got at the moment until I am mobile than she has gotta go.
Finally arrived at my home and the doctor said I should rest for at least a week,no work just play I guess.
"Pam dear go home please you are an irritation to my daily cycle of life"
"Coltan I have to give you a treat first, than I can go home I just want to remind you of the good times we used to have"
"Pam leave my house now I don't need your "treats" and God knows where you have been I mean I just came out of hospital I don't want to go back because of some STD so please leave"
She looked at me and smiled and than grabbed her keys and swung her sexy hips as she walked off
"I'll come back my hubby"
Finally she left p,some women need to learn when to leave.

I missed my empty big house that I constantly had all to myself,the only women that lived here was Kare she made it feel so alive.
Now she thinks I have a fiancé but she couldn't really believe that,I don't ever settle down and if I do one day it cannot be with a bimbo like Pam .

***
Getting done for a night out I put on my leather jacket and my black ripped jeans with my hair gelled up and a simple gray t-shirt with a naked girl on it,what I like my girls and she was not completely naked there were head sets on her boobs.
I got into my new black Audi i didn't feel for a business crowd so I prolonged my vacation into two weeks even though I was completely recovered,drinking and girls would do the trick.
I walked into club UBERSEVÉ it was the newest on the block and it was trending so I had to be there
The misty atmosphere and the girls grinding against each other on the dance floor with drinks in their hands and everyone dancing to the beat I felt right at home.
I decided to sit back and watch everyone dance till they couldn't anymore
"Hi there stranger" it was Catness Blue the girl with the thrill to live
And also my best friend well until I slept with her
"Cat is that you"
"Yes baby now dance with me"
"No thanks I'm gonna just sit"
"Fine than I will dance for you"
She had the shortest pink dress on and I am sure no underwear,she began her lap dance and damn I would never forget that huge ass but something else caught my eye
Those movements looked so familiar that hair swayed in such a memorable way,that dress set tight on her on all the right places I kept watching and when she turned it was KAREN.
She looked so different in that blue and white dress fitting her perfectly showing her body off the way it should be showed off,lips were painted with black lipstick and her body language oozed sex.
For a Virgin she moved in a different way.
I immediately took Cat off my lap and walk towards her I could hear Cat calling me back but I ignored her and walked through the raving crowd towards her.
She looked so beautiful I wanted her so badly.
I grabbed her waist and she kept dancing on me like I have never seen her dance before,I kissed her neck and it felt like the rest of the crowd was slowly fading away my hand began sliding down and I grabbed her thigh,I could hear her moan but when she opened her eyes and she turned to look at me she pushed my hand away she looked furious but I looked at her with passion.
She started moving briskly through the crowd and I couldn't help but follow her like a lost puppy.
We got outside and she hit me on the chest
"Fuck you Coltan I fucking hate you how could you lie to me I loved you you asshole" she spat at me
She kept hitting me and she began to cry and I forcefully grabbed her and held her in my arms and kissed her,she tasted so good I wanted her and would take her right there I didn't care who was looking she was mine,I grabbed her ass and picked her up she rapped her legs around me and I kissed her neck
She pushed me back and we were both out of breath than she hit me again and I let go of her,she looked at me with resentment and she ran off but when I wanted to follow her she stopped me and I listened.
Fuck.

**
Karen
The air moist and the music loud in my ears, I couldn't help but go back into the one place that led me to his claws of destruction.
My mind is only but a piece of insanity and my body moves with sanity
The feels of falling for his words so dangerous to my soul I should have known but instead I decided to fall into an oblivion of great illusion called love,was it just lust or do I love you
Coltan...
I can still taste him and I can't let go of his scent that attracts me to wild possibility with him,I am weak in the arms of that man and even weaker without the memories of his taste
My mind is a fog right now but I decide to just keep dancing,more alcohol and less thoughts but it becomes worse and I can hear his voice in my head while moving my body to the sound of my hearts strings playing along with my mind a horrid but beautiful melody,Coltan is my drug and my life long craving and now that I have tasted him even a little I want more this time I want more I want him to take to another world where the thought of the pleasure I am craving becomes almost real.
Coltan I hate your existence but what can I do without you,nothing.
Why do you keep taking me on this roller coaster that has no end,up and down left and right.
Words I wish o could say to him but decide to keep to my own hearts content.
Goodbye is not what I need but it's what I choose to be bliss in my eternal pain.