THE LOVE I CANNOT HOLD

8 - Creating A Big Wall

It has been three weeks since that day and today, Rische and I celebrate our second year of being together today. As usual, we had our cappuccino and tuna sandwhich but we are in her classroom. It's difficult to go out together when she's being very busy with school matters of which I know nothing. She seems to be adamant of me helping her everytime. I'd like her that way though. She does not purge a slave out from me. Right now, I'm looking at a picture of a busy woman, with a full desk. She skipped a glance at me the same way my heart skipped. I love everyhing about Rische. But human as I am, I can like another woman too. Or with all probability I may say, I may not be in love.

"Am I that attractive babe?" She said as she scribbled things down the papers.

"Nope. Something is wrong with you." I said seriously.

"What would that be?" I have her full attention now.

"You falling for me. You're perfect. I'm not. Two far and opposite poles. " I see her eyes hurting by what I said.

"I see you failed your physics way back in high school. Haven't you heard of the quote 'Same sign repels. Opposite attracts?" Her smile drained my worries.

"I guess I'll never become a good teacher." And we both laughed. We stopped when a woman whose scent I knew a lot appeared. We both stared at her.

"Oops! My apologies for disturbing! I just came by to drop something." Her eyes seem to obviate from looking at me. There was a moment of silence.

"I forgot to drop by in her office! Thanks for delivering it on hand Sena." Rische broke the quietness that ruled the place.

"Ah yeah. I'd. . Better.. go.. sorry for disturbing.." Sena's steps were quick but she was halted when Rische called her back.

"We still have more and we think it would be fun to have you join us." My innocent Rische didn't know what's happening.

"I.. am busy Rische. Im sorry to refuse this offer now." She apologetically bowed her head.

"It's okay. Have a break for awhile."

And she was not able to reject the offer more. She's that woman who would do things for the people she love though it might hurt her. I casually give her some glances but I can't help but imagine what we did last fateful night. I can't avert my eyes from staring at her luscious lips that became so kissable overnight. She and Rische were having a good conversation so I excused myself from them. I went to the small garden few steps from their classroom buildings and smelled some fresh air. I should really stop this foolishness. I can't own two women at the same time! Im not that cruel sometimes. My reverie was interrupted and I turned to face that person.

"I thought what we had is purely friendship Fjord". She said holding back her tears forcefully. "But I want to believe we are more". She went to a desperate cry.

"It's funny how one night can change your life". Were the only words I said and hugged her. It was only a short moment when she parted.

"She'll be looking for you. Go in."

I followed her order without any thing out from my mouth but before I truly proceed, I turned and we both locked our eyes together in a sorrowful stare.