THE LOVE I CANNOT HOLD

13 - Breaking the Bridge

The weariness played its role last night that I woke up 5 in the morning! I got up real quick! For sure, Rische would be looking and the last thing I want is an early morning revelation. Sena groaned. She must have been having bad dreams. I kissed her forehead and pulled the blanket to her shoulders.

As I reached the inn, I saw Rische by the terrace holding a cup of coffee. She noticed me and she frowned. I acted nonchalant and continued inside. She spoke as I took hold of the door handle.

"Where were you?" Eyeing the farthest horizon of the ocean, she blurted.

"I did my morning jog." If I were Pinocchio, my nose must have been very very long now.

"Really? You jogged 1 in the morning and ended just now. The area must have been so pretty that you forgot to bring me with you. Have you forgotten our agreement?" Is she bringing that again early today? She probably want a petty fight for breakfast. Too bad, I don't. All my sweetness must have been consumed by Sena because I act sourly in front of Rische. I ignored her last statements to avoid fight. The last thing I heard when she got inside was a deep sigh.

I took a shower and thought of things to make it up to her. After I finished dressing up, she was nowhere to be found inside. I was in a bit of panic. I still have love for her and the last thing I wanted here in this remote island is seeing her cry. But maybe, she needed time to think and cool things in her head. I should respect her little self privacy.

Before I decided to go and have some breakfast, the door creaked open and Rische came into full length.

"Rische, I'm sorry for leaving your side last night". I closed the gap that separates us. I held her hand and kissed it. She's still unmoved.

"Please talk to me." I pleaded. Just when I saw the corner of her lips curved.

"Okay! Okay! You won. I'm not mad. Not even a bit. I just want you to be by my side during our stay here." She confessed and I was glad she's not going beyond extreme for this little thing which is giant behind the covers. Im truly torn between two lovers now. But she is heavier than the other.

"I'll stay with you. That's a promise".

And so with our hands entwined, we entered the mess hall. Everyone find us sweet but one pair of orbs were green.

During the whole morning, we took surfing lessons and bathe in the warmth of the sun. Everyone had fun, especially Rische.

By afternoon, Rische and I separated from the rest who are about to do some hiking along the caves of the island. We detoured and went to shop at the town center and bought some souvenirs. I laughed a lot when I saw Rische's list of receivers. We dropped by on an ice cream parlor and tried their new and unfamiliar flavor called "bitter gourd mint". The taste was different and I swore to Earth this is the worst ice cream we've tasted! And then there was a quack fortune teller telling us that a gigantic bridge between us was built and to be able to destroy it, I alone must break it. It was weird and I know it has some sense to it. Rische was confused but forgot it in time. Then we passed by a flower shop. I ordered a bouquet of carnation and handed it to the most beautiful woman who captured my heart before anyone did. Rische cried on that small act and I kissed her out of happiness. We were so zesty during our shopping the whole afternoon that by the time we reached our inn, she automatically fell into a deep sleep. I decided to have some fresh air for awhile. I should and must let go Sena. What I have for her is not real and is caused by my loneliness and longing for Rische. I should tell her before anything worst go uncontrolled.

That's what I thought. What I should tell her must be short and concise before Rische wake up.

I searched the whole area in search of Sena but found her not.

Where could she be? Dang. I forgot my phone back in the inn.

I walked a little farther and promised myself that if she won't show herself up to me, I'd break the bridge myself without any notice.

Then Sena magically appeared on the far end of my eye. She's having fun with the island kids as they danced around her. She's wearing flowers around her head and her goddess figure was shown in front of me again just before I decided to loose grip of her firm hands.

She saw me and waved her hand. I smiled thriftly and signaled her to come. She gave the kids something and they galloped away. As she moved closer to me, the heavy wind blew her attractive and fragrant curly hair away. She tucked some on her left ear. It was dang attractive to me.

"Hey." Her smile were up to ears when she saw me and I realized this is the last time I'll be seeing her goddess figure. I'm beginning to forget the memorized line I practiced a million times while searching for her.

"I know why you're here." She was still smiling despite the tears that's clouding her orbs. "You want to continue your relationship with Rische and that what you had for me were vain." I was more speechless that talking has escaped my mouth. It's never easy to break a heart in a nice way. I'm glad she did the talking.

"I knew from the very beginning that I was playing a tug of war alone. I'm not as talented as Rische. I'm not as beautiful as her -"

"That's not true." I inserted but she was not happy.

"Please let me finish." I nod in respect.

"I can never be compared to her because right from the beginning I am a mere nothing. Thank you for letting me feel comforted. For fixing my broken heart though you're breaking it back again. I took a risk. I was holding to a future with you in my dreams. The Love that we had was an illusion. It was but a mirage you had for Rische. The way you held her hand this morning, that tight grip which just by looking would prove that the love you had for each other is unbreakable."

We're both crying. Her words were real and true and as much as I wanted to fix her shattered heart, I will never become the answer to it.

"That genuine look you had in watching her move, were priceless. I would have bought it if it was for sale." We are both letting the tears fall like a storm raging. A storm that breaks hopes and devastate hearts. I can't face her like this but she's the only woman that saw me cry.

"May you have that happy ever after with her. I love you Fjord. Though for a short time, you showed me how to become a princess without a castle in your heart. A princess with no kingdom come. I'm happy just to see you happy from afar. Good bye Fjord. I... love... you..." she said the last words in tears and wail of lamentation.

She walked away slowly and I'm confused right at this moment. Should I just let her go? While in deep contemplation without moving a step forward nor backward, I cried frustratingly.
I went back to the inn feeling empty.

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My longest update so far! Whooo! Thanks for reading guys! We're near to the end and I do hope I can make you cry despite my limited knowledge. Hohoho. Im pouring all my heart in this piece of work.