Forever

Chapter: 7

After knowing the truth i stormed out and ran to my room. Slamming the door behind me. I jumped on my bed facing the ceiling. Then i felt something go down my cheek-----water. The worst tears are when your all alone crying silently to yourself just so people wouldnt hear you. I could control my tears so i got my pillow and bursted, lucky for me no one could hear me. I began to grow very tired. And then everything went black. 

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"Look Steve that boy over there gave me a flower, then he kissed my cheek. He says he likes me." My five year old self beamed 

"Haha. He chuckled. No one could ever like you. Your worthless remember. The poor boy's probably blind." He said while taking my flower and destroying. 

"N-n-n-n-o-o-o th-thats not true." I started to stuttered while my vision became blurry 

"Of course it is Darcy, i mean why else would your father leave and never want to talk to you hmm tell me." He chuckled 

"I dont know but my daddy loves me." I stated with confidence 

"If he really did love you then..where is he." He said with a giant smirk 

"I-i-i-i dont know okay." I ran away and felt the tears pouring down my cheeks. 

Steven's right i thought. I am worthless. No one can ever love me. Im im just not pretty or good enough. I kept thinking.  

I opened my eyes and found myself sprawled all over my bed. Oh my god it was just a dream. But then i realized this was no dream. It-it-it was a flashback. I walked over to my mirror and saw my eyes were red and puffy. And there has not been a change since i was five. Im still worthless, and ugly. And no one could ever love me. I felt like crying again but i couldn't because i was all cried up. 

"Darcy are you sleeping." I heard after the knocking. 

I looked myself in the mirror and realized im in no state to show my face for the rest of the night. So i just decided to let them think im sleeping. I jumped under the covers again when i heard the door knob turning. I quickly buried myself with pillows so the person wouldnt see me. I heard the door close so i roses my head to see two people who caused this painful memory back---Niall and Zayn 

"What. Do. You. Want." I said sternly 

"Darcy its not like that i promise you." Niall pleaded 

"Oh really niall." I said with sarcasm in my voice 

"Yes really" he said 

"Darcy i....have you been crying." Zayn asked 

"What does it matter to you." I spatted at him 

"Nothing." He growled back 

My blood at this point was boiling,i cant take this. No i was just sweating through my fucking eyes. No shit i was crying. God hes such an arse.  

"Yes omg yes zayn i was crying." I started 

Then there was a knock at my door. 

"Darcy are you in there?" Said the voice. I mentally face palm myself for not being quite when i was talking to the pricks. It was harry. Oh no. I looked at zayn and niall they were way ahead of me.they were already walking towards my closet ready to hide. Then the door knob started to move and i jumped on my bed.  

"Darcy um i just.....darcy..darcy. Oh my god darcy are you okay?" He asked full of concern. 

"Yeah just had a bad dream thats all." I said trying to persuade him.