Forever

chapter: 11

The next morning I opened my eyes to see Zayn was not at my side anymore. His arms weren't around my fragile body guarding me. I looked over to my clock and saw it was after 10. I decided to drag myself to the bathroom and brush my teeth I wasn't even paying any attention at all. My mind was flooding with every memory of yesterday. How Zayn made me feel. How he ran after me. How he cared for me. How he brought his soft lips to mine. I thought while bringing my hand to my lips. Just remembering his touch. But I forgot I was brushing my teeth so I had toothpaste on the tips of my index finger. I quickly washed it off and rinsed my mouth off. I looked at myself in my mirror and decided to put my hair up in a top knot. It's been in my face this entire time I've been here. Right when I was about to walk out the room I found a note on my dresser.

Dear Darcy,

Good Morning Beautiful. I left while you were asleep. I would've said good-bye but you looked so peaceful and so adorable while you slept. I didn't want to ruin that for you, i already have you lying to your brother and everyone. I'm appologizing in advanced for the the next couple of weeks, maybe even months. I know this charade sucks, but they can't know. Well I shall see you later on today.

- Zayn x

As i was reading the note Zayn left me I couldn't help but feel a knot in my stomach. I didn't want to lie to anyone. But Darcy you're already lying to everyone about your past. My subconscious says making the knot in my stomach get tighter. Darcy it's not that bad, you've been lying about everything your whole life, why not keep it going. My subconscious adds again. But I wasn't sure how that made me feel. I mean yeah i have been lying to everyone. Even to myself. My whole life I hated myself so much. But i would just plaster a huge smile on my face everyday. When someone had anything to say what did I do? I just laughed it off and put the thought to the back of my head. Then at night when i layed in bed the thoughts would come back. I would cry myself to sleep. But by day i was this happy person everyone knew. Well everyone except Steven because he caused much of the pain that remains with me to this day. I pretended to be so happy. I played that happy girl part so well. Even i started to believe it. My subconscious was right. I had to keep the lying up. I could never imagine Harry or anyone to find out what's been going on these past 17 years. So before i decided to go out with everyone i wanted to change my pajamas to my sweats and a oversized t-shirt. I felt much more comfortable being in a house full of boys. I really widh Gemma was here. I beagn to walk towards my door to leave when I saw Louis standing right in front of me when i opened it.

"Good morning Louis," I said with as much enthusiasm as I had.

"Good morning, Darcy" he smiled backed showing as much maybe more energy than i had. Wow Louis had a smile that could just solve world peace or something. Oh gosh why is he looking at me oh yeah because I'm staring at him oops?

"So Louis may I ask what you're doing outside my door, are you like guarding me or something," i said laughing, joking around obviously

"Oh...erm....yeah kind...of." he shyly admitted looking towards the ground at his TOMS. I looked up at him how his eyebrows furrowed at my expression.

"Ha-ha nice one Louis, but, come on what's the real answer?" i said while laughing again. I looked up at him and he was still looking at the ground without saying a single thing. His silence kind of put me off guard. I looked down at my hands fiddling with my fingertips. Then back at Louis he had this smug look on his face. From God knows what.

"Okay even though I have to "babysit" you we are going to have a sick time." he said putting air quotations over babysit. I was not sure what he meant at all.