Forever

chapter: 10

Zayn and I started to hit the road back to his home. I no longer consider his home my home. You might be thinking dude it was just an accident get over it. But you have no idea how much damage Steven did to me. He destroyed me inside everyday, making me feel worthless. All those nights I cried myself to sleep, just replaying in my brain everything I have done. Hiding everything from everyone. I hated myself.

Then when I finally felt just a tiny bit better about myself it just fell apart all over again. When Harry hit me it just flooded my mind with horrible. disappointing memories I want to forget. But how can you forget something like that? Something that completely altered your life.

It wasn't because Harry hit me that it got to me. I was used to being abused. It was the fact that I knew I could never run away from the truth. from reality.

No matter how much I wanted to forget I just couldn't.

"Darcy? " Zayn said as his voice occupied my thoughts

"huh?" I questioned not really paying attention to anything around me

"I've been trying to get your attention for about 10 minutes and all you've been doing was staring out the window blankly. he said clearly annoyed. he paused for a moment looking out his window, then back at the road, and finally focusing his attention on me. Are you alright Darcy, do you want to talk about it?" he asked full of concern

I kinda froze for a moment because no one has actually wanted to talk about anything with me let alone hear my problems. But I was not about to cave in. I couldn't help but feel like I'm bothering people. I've always said, some people don't really care they're just curious...

"I'm fine. I paused for a moment still focusing my attention toward the window just turning slightly toward Zayn. He had bruises, cuts, and dried up blood on his face. "I'm not the one you should be worried about." I spoke blankly looking out the window. I turned to look at him and he had his hands firmly gripping the steering wheel.

"What are you talking about?" he asked as he put one hand on his knee

"Your face look what Harry did to you." I said starting to feel awful.

"So it's okay I'm still alive right?" he said trying to reassure me putting his hand near my knee

"But it's not okay if it weren't for me you would never have your face messed up, if it weren't for me everything would be normal." I exclaimed finally taking my eyes off the window and looking at Zayn.

Zayn began to pull over to the side of the road and stopped. He took his seatbelt off and turned his body towards me.

"Look Darcy I wouldn't care if I had to fly 10 planes fight a 100 ft fire breathing dragon. As long as you're okay and happy, I'll be more than happy to do it." he spoke looking into my eyes and cupping my cheek with his two hands. I was going to argue against him but I kinda lost my train of thought. I got lost in his dark. mysterious. eyes.

I guess he noticed because he gave me his famous smirk. I just gave him a soft smile.

"You know it was worth it" he said as his face was just a couple of inches away from mine.

"no it wasn't" I whispered afraid to upset him

"It was worth it as long as I have you to kiss me better." he whispered coming closer and closer to me. I just blushed and tried to look away but I couldn't because Zayn was holding my face in his hands.

"You're adorable when you blush." he chuckled while bringing his forehead to mine. I lifted my head and began to kiss every bruise, cut, there was on him. I began to kiss his bruises around the rim of his eyes. I stopped to look into his eye. He soon met my eye contact. I caressed his hair gently.  Then I made my way to his cheek, where I gently kissed him, I went by his chin to kiss him and then there was a cut on his bottom lip. I brought my face a couple of inches away from his and slowly brought my lips to his. I softly began to kiss his lips but he began to slightly bring his tongue to my bottom lip begging for entrance. I wasn't sure if I wanted him to have total power of my mouth, but i decided to give it a try. When I gave him access I felt him smirk as he roamed my mouth. I guess he wanted to have total control of everything. When we parted we were out of breath panting heavily.