I just want you to know

funeral and sleep

*Eves POV*

Niall broke the hug.

I didn't really hugged him back. Sure I do love him but I didn't really want to hug right now.

"I thought you just went to Aaliy to speak with her. Cheer her up and things. Don't tell me you talked that long with her..?"

He chuckled a bit at the last part.

I was really sorry that I didn't called or texted him but my mood was on the low point.

I walked past him and made my way into the kitchen to eat something as I noticed Nialls Macbook with an already opened mail on the kitchen table.

Apperently it was adressed to me.

*Nialls POV*

I was soo happy as Louis stood there with Evelyn at my door.

I hugged her tight but she didn't hug back.

I was a bit confused. Something must have happened but I didn't want to ask her out about this because she would probably see the mail for her.

I hope she won't get mad at me for reading it already but I couldn't know that it was actually for her.

*Eves POV*

The next time will be full of things that let me remember of my mother, I thought after I read the mail on Nialls Macbook.

I read the mail. I read every little detail but the only word that bounced around my head was 'funeral'.. Her funeral.. My mothers funeral.

I didn't noticed Niall stepping into the kitchen until he wrapped his arms arround my small trembling figure. Tears were now silently running down my cheeks. Niall took his arms off of me and cupped my face into his hands. He forced me to look him in the eyes.

And you could tell I didn't like to look at anyone right now. I usually can't look into peoples eyes for too long, even Nialls beautiful deep ocean blue eyes were too much for me now.

"you don't have to go there, you now", niall broke the silence.

I freed my head out of his hands and turned to close the mail. Nialls gaze pursued my actions until my eyes met his.

"I will.."  I said and walked past him to find his sleeping place.

I went to his wardrobe and pulled an old t-shirt out. I went into the bathroom and took a shower.

I switched multiple times between burning hot water and freezing cold water.

After the last time I switched to cold water I totally turned ir off and got out to dry myself.

I put on some new underwear and pulled Nialls old shirt over my head. After I brushed my teeth I just walked into the bedroom with my wet hair. I didn't care a bloody shit whether my hair looks like an explosion tomorrow morning or not. I just wanted to sleep.

I layed there in Nialls bed half asleep as he cuddled himself next to me and wispered quietly

"Sorry love. Have a tight sleep and sweet dreams. I'll come with you to the funeral if you want. I love you."

Suddenly his words conjured a little smile on my face and a warm feeling inside of me and I cuddled even more to his side.

Niall made me sleep tightly and dream sweetly just with his presence and it was one of these nights where I was happy for this moment even if the last time was grey as fuck.

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hellow world,

yup I'm still alive and as you see theres an update because I decided to not give up on this story cause it earned so many reads and I'm happy about every single one ♡

hope you enjoyed it (:

I thought about starting another ff but it probably will be a Niall one again $: ..

tell me in the comments if you would read another niall ff of mine or if I should take someone else because you want it so bad ^-^

love noslyxx (: