Sams POV
I stare at the ground,my cheeks reddening,I could hear movement and then I stare up timidly only to see Taurtis exiting the house and running. You messed up. Big time. "You shouldn't have told him" I scold myself.
I run back up to my room forgetting major Ellen Is in there so when I enter I scream.
"Wow, you scream like a girl." Major Ellen comments
"Thanks....WHAT DOES HE SEE IN HER!!!!!!" I end up ranting
"Who the hell are you talking about!" Ellen retorts
"FREAKING YN OFCOURSE"
"Well she's pretty,a girl, kind, fair, and perfect for Taurtis I ship it so much!" Ellen says dreamily.
"I thought I invited you here so you could help me not make me feel worse!" I respond angrily.
YN POV
I sit alone in the private ward.I miss taurtis and him cracking jokes and making me laugh.
All I have to keep me company is the doctor but he doesn't talk much he only monitors my feelings.
God I feel like I'm in a mental hospital again.
FLASH BACK- has cutting in
I HAD JUST RETURNED HOME CRYING AND UPSET FROM MY DAY OF BEING BULLIED BY CLAIR AND ALICE.
I WALKED HOME SINCE THE BUS WAS FULL EVEN THOUGH IT WAS RAINING.
I WALKED INTO MY ROOM AND GRABBED MY BLADES
"YOU CAN FIGHT IT Y/N COME ON DONT DO IT." BUT YOU SLICE AT YOUR SELF ACROSS YOUR THIGHS AS BLOOD POURS OUT OF YOUR WOUNDS YOU THINK TO YOUSELF "IM WEAK. IM UGLY. IM STUPID. I SHOULD DIE." THESE THOUGHTS CIRCULATE ROUND MY HEAD UNTIL I HEAR A DOOR OPEN AND LOUD FOOTSTEPS COMING CLOSER AND CLOSER AND CLOSER "AH,I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE ALONE" MY DOOR OPENS AND MY MUM STANDS THERE SMILING BUT ONE LOOK AT MY THIGHS AND MY PUFFY RED FACE HER SMILE FADES AND SHE JUST BREAKS DOWN IN TEARS, MUCH LIKE MY OWN. SHE PICKS UP HER PHONE AND TELLS ME TO GET CHANGED AND GET IN THE CAR. SHE CALLS SOMEONE AND DOESNT SAY A WORD AS SHE DRIVES ME SOMEWHERE. WE STOP AND I GET OUT AT A HOSPITAL TITLED 'HOSPITAL FOR SUICIDAL' OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT I WASNT PAYING ATTENTION. WE STOP AT A DESK AND I SHUT OF AS MY MUM TALKS RO THE LADY AT THE DESK. THE TAKE ME INTO A ROOM AND CHECK MY POCKETS, MY CLOTHES,MY BAG AND EVERYTHING UNTIL TAKING ME INSIDE A ROOM WITH A BED AND THE LADY BENDING DOWN AND SAYING "THIS IS YOUR ROOM FOR A WEEK"
IT WAS HORRIBLE THERE AND IT MADE ME PARANOID AND ANNOYED
I WANTED TO GET HOME TO MY BLADES BUT KNEW THAT I WOULD HAVE TO STOP
MY MUM STOPPED BY AND SAID THAT SHE HAD SEARCHED MY ROOM AND TAKEN EVERYTHING DANGEROUS eg BLADE,KNIVES ECT
I WAS FURIOUS BUT AT THE SAME TIME I WAS RELIEVED
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I remembered that like it was yesterday and knew that I should never do that but this was just so normal and repetitive for people to trick me that I just grabbed some glass and...yeah
I knew it was bad and it made me both happy and sad that taurtis had came
I was happy knowing that he truly loved me
But I was sad because he was disappointed in me
I remember him saying "never do that I was so scared please I love you"
I wish he could stay longer but he was sent out a few hours ago and here comes dinner.
A nurse comes in with a plate of broccoli and some Chicken
The chicken was dry and the broccoli was soggy.
