Fighting Your Demons - H2OVanoss

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Delirious's P.O.V

It's been a few days and Evan won't let me out if his sight I'm getting worried because the voices in my head are starting again and they are getting bad I was trying to take my shirt off but from all the damage done made it hard until I felt a pair of hands on my waist pulling my shirt up and off I turned to find Evan again he was staring me in the eyes and had his hands around my waist " How could you do this" I heard a voice say I jumped he gave me a confused look but I shook it off and walked into the bathroom shutting the door I looked into the mirror at all the new scars I had it will take a lot of ink to cover them " Why weren't you the one who died instead" I closed my eyes and tried to silence them " You left us for dead" I shook it off and undressed the rest of the way turning the water on " You can protect him but you couldn't do anything for us" I stepped in the shower letting the water sting until I grew used to it " Why don't you just kill him you will never be loved your weak and pathetic you couldn't save us and you'll never save anyone" I punched the wall.

I heard a knock at the door " Jon are you ok" It was Evan but I didn't answer him " See I told you your weak and it should have been you Jon I watched mom die and then I was killed while you slept" her voice echoed through my ears " Shut up!" I yelled I couldn't take it anymore I could feel Delirious wanting to come out, he always kept them away " See you run like a coward" my sisters voice wouldn't stop then I felt hands on my waist I turned to see Evan fully naked in front of me " How can you look at him and not kill him, YOU LET US DIE... so he should too" I was loosing control and Evan pushed me up against the wall and held my hands to the wall " Evan go" I said softly because it was getting hard for me to speak, he placed his hands on my stomach and set his head on my chest that's when everything lost control my sister and others screaming in my head Delirious wanting to snap his neck, I just wrapped my arms around him and held him tight as everything inside was fighting " Shh" I heard him whisper and I held tighter " Come on Jon let me come out to play" I shook my head and felt my chest grow heavy " I will kill him" I could hear Delirious laughing.

I was about to lose all control until I felt something on my lips I opened my eyes to find Evan kissing me " See you should have died, you never loved us" I was so confused and hurt because at this point I would be killing him but I'm standing here in front of him " Jon come back its ok, im here" Evan whispered and hugged me tighter he held me till the voices stopped I felt cold streaks on my face... I must have been crying, wait I don't cry I haven't since that night I pulled back and he gave me a smile before turning the water off pulling me out of the shower, I stayed quite not wanting to think about anything he wrapped a towel around me I dried off and so did he, we walked out of the bathroom and into his room I watched as he grabbed us clothes, the way he looked was tempting if I was any bit normal I would be doing a lot more than just standing here, he handed my some clothes and I got dressed once I was done I sat down on the edge of his bed and put my head in my hands I had one hell of a headache, I felt hands pull my arms away from my face I looked to see Evan standing in front of me, he put my hands on his sides and he pulled me close to him holding my head into his chest.

" Let's go eat" he spoke softly as he backed away from me and helped me off the bed, once we were all at the table the guys were laughing and arguing but I couldn't really hear them their conversation would cut in and out as I just stared at the plate in front of me " Jon why aren't you eating" I looked up to see Luke giving me a worried look but I just returned my head to where it was at, I felt Evans hand on my shoulder I looked up to see everyone was gone " I've been trying to snap you out of whatever you were doing for a few hours" I looked at the clock to see he was right I must have been spaced out pretty bad I got up and walked away, I saw David siting on the couch so I walked up to him " Get you tattooing equipment" I said, he nodded his head leaving for a few moments before returning to the living room " What do you want man" he said as I laid on my back and rested on the couch " Just do whatever" I said, he smiled and pulled a chair up beside me " Mind if I play some music" I shook my head and he turned on the radio.

Everyone else was talking and playing games but I soon closed my eyes and drifted into thought at the sound of the music and the buzzing of the needle it didn't hurt even when he went over my scars " All done" he said wiping my chest down one more time, I sat up and he pulled a mirror out in front of me I looked at it, there was a Smokey field with what looked like demons in the background a Phoenix in the middle holding a crystal ball it looked amazing and I kind of liked it " No mater what's behind you, there's always that one thing that will change your view to something beautiful" he said and I just gave him a nod I sat back watching the guys still playing games " Dude that looks fucking great" Craig said as he sat next to me, the rest of the guys turned around looking me over and smiling David was really good and by their faces they like it too, Evan was just smiling at me I got up walking to Evans room since he wont let me be alone, I put some music on and started to just stare into nothing when I felt something warm on my chest, looking down I saw Evan curled up against me his eyes were closed I played with his hair and he seemed to shift more comfortably.

*Time skip*

I heard my phone ring so I quickly picked it up.

Jon - " Hello?".

Jack - " Hey bud".

Jon - " What's up man".

Jack - " Nothing and I haven't seen shit out here, wanta' go for a drink".

Jon - " I can't the guys are worried".

Jack - " Well shit man you don't think I can keep ye safe I see ye traitor" he laughed a bit.

Jon - " Oh shut up, maybe another time".

Jack - " Alright bud see ya".

He hung up and I slowly crawled out from under Evan and went to get a drink but as I made my way down the stairs I found the house was quite which set me on edge there was no sign of anyone so I wondered around the house looking in each room I saw nothing there was no signs of any struggle or break in so I pulled out my phone and texted Lui.

J - " The hell are you guys?".

L - " We went out to patrol don't tell Evan please".

Damn it I whispered to myself I went to check on Evan he was still asleep so I got ready and left to look for the guys, the streets where oddly calm which was unsettling it felt like a storm was about to happen... I felt more on edge as I walked through the shadows an hour has passed and still nothing until I saw a figure I followed it but when I got to the alley it turned into I saw nothing I searched around but it was like there was no one even there to begin with I shook it off and looked around some more, my phone went off picking it up I had this pain in my stomach " You look like a lost puppy how cute" then whoever it was hung up, I looked around trying to find where they saw me from I saw nothing but darkness I didn't know where I was and that's when I felt a warmth come over me, I looked down to see my father's dead body lying on the floor " Beautiful isn't it" the man was tall and had buzzed hair " Death brings things out that you can never see on your own" he put a hand on my shoulder " Come now I'm going to show you just what it's like to find that beauty" once I snapped out of it there was someone laying on the ground bloody in front of me, my eyes widened in shock " No" I whispered as I saw who it was.