Him and Him and Him... -Book One- {{COMPLETE}}

Chapter Nine.

I looked at Jacob for a while, tilting my head slightly, unaware Justin took my hand and held it again. It was only until he squeezed my hand tightly i realised and returned my attention back to Justin. I looked at Justin as he looked at Jacob, glancing at me ocasionally.

We all stood there in silence until Jacob finally coughed a heavy cough, then spoke to us. I didnt know who he was talking to, but i decided to answer.

"What are you doing?" asked Jacob as he stepped forward, only about a meter away from me and Justin, who was still holding my hand tightly.

I looked at Justin for a while then smiled, i could see he was relaxed now after i squeezed his hand back tightly, reassuraing him that was everything was perfectly fine.

"None of your buisness" i snapped at Jacob, where the heck did i gain all this confidence from? Maybe it was because Justin was here, keeping me safe by holding his hand. I looked at Jacob and suddenly felt my throat tighten, i felt like i was going to cry.

No Abbey..what the hell? Dont cry! Espically not infront of Jaco--Justin!

I looked at Justin as he looked at me then reached over and wiped a tear away. I cant believe i let a freaking tear fall from my eye, escpially infront of these...guys!

I closed my eyes tightly and tried to think up of something that would cheer me up. I kept thinking until i finally thought of something. Tom Felton wearing a chicken suit. Thats right guys, thats gonna make me laugh.

I laughed out loud then stopped as Jacob glared at me, his eyebrows raised as he thought i was laughing because i was crying. Thats just..weird. I looked back at him then coughed lightly and spoke.

"What? Everyone has their moment of laughing..." i said quietly as Justin grinned, squeezing my hand again as if i was his little daughter or something.

I looked back at Jacob then felt myself go upset again..no Abbey! Think of Tom Felton in a chicken suit! Think of it now!

I closed my eyes again and tried to think of that. For a few seconds in my mind, i saw Tom Felton, dancing around with a huge chicken suit. I smiled lightly to myself until the moment got destroyed by images of Sasha and Jacob at the party. The images kept flashing in my mind until i flashed open my eyes and looked at Jacob, he was inches away from my face.

"I thought you were diff--" he started to whisper but i cut him off as i let go of Justins hand and shoved him back.

"You coward! You thought I was different?!" i shouted as i pointed to myself, this attracted yet again a huge crowd to form a circle around me, Justin and Jacob.

Justin stood behind me and wrapped his arms around me tightly as i continued to shout, he tried to calm me down but it wouldnt work.

"Babe..calm down" he whispered into my ear but i shoved his arms away from me and glared at him. I could see the fear in his eyes for the first time ever.

I finally noticed what i had done, i had just pushed Justin away from me, hard. I looked at him and opened my lips then spoke.

"Justin im sorry..." i said softly as i stepped towards him, but he stepped backwards, the fear still in his eyes.

"Im so so sorry" i said as i reached for his hand but he snatched it away then he shouted loudly, i had never heard Justin shout before, ever.

"If he's who you want, go with him then!" he shouted as he started to cry lightly, i tried to reach for his hand again but he refused.

"No Abbey, forget it" he said firmly inbetween his tears, i watched his tears fall from his bright green eyes. They werent as bright as before, they looked dull and...sad.

I frowned a little as i tried to reach for his hands, then finally grabbed onto both of them and planted a deep kiss on his perfect lips. I thought that this would make up my apolgy, but clearly it didnt as he pulled away and snatched his hands back.

I felt like a complete monster that point as he turned on his heels and walked off, looking down as he ran his fingers through his hair. I watched him walk away then turned to Jacob.

He was about to say something but i didnt let him as i shoved past him and walked off, head down.

I just realised at that moment what i had done.

I had just pushed Justin away, out of my life forever.

I gulped to the thought of it and found myself running to the girls bathroom, i ran into a cubicle, locked myself in and sat on the toilet seat, crying and crying until i couldnt bring out anymore tears.

I kept crying and sniffing inbetween my tears, rubbing my eyes as i tried to stop the tears from flowing, but it didnt work. I suddenly stopped crying as i heard someone open the girls bathroom door, i froze and kept myself silent, hoping no-one would find out i was here.

And Thank God, they didnt.