Hotel Ceiling

April 29, 2016

"What's wrong with this building?" I sighed. "First of all, there's not enough room. How can we only have one studio? We need at least three. That way we can have multiple classes going on at the same time."

"Okay, so a space with at least three rooms or big enough to make into three rooms. You also need two bathrooms and an office. Anything else, babe?" I tapped my chin, pretending to think about it. "No, Yifan. That's all I can think of. You know that I will tell you if anything else comes to mind." He smiled and led me out of the building.

"There's one more space that we can look at today. The rest will have to wait until next week. Maybe we should have brought Chanyeol too. Since he's going to be handling the interior and whatnot." I gave his hand a squeeze as we walked to his car. "That wouldn't be awkward, for you? I just don't want it to be weird. I still haven't made a decision on the whole dating thing and you've both made it clear that you'd like a relationship. If I like a space I'll take pictures and show him." Yifan unlocked the car and opened the door for me. I slid into the passenger seat and buckled up.

"Are you hungry? We can go eat after we check out this last space." I laced my hand with his and looked over at him. For a second I studied his face. I really liked how his blonde hair looked against his skin. "You are beautiful." I mumbled. "Can't we skip lunch and you can have me instead?" I offered. A small smile appeared, enhancing his handsome features. "Kyungsoo, you know how much I want to just take you home and fuck you until we're both completely spent. But you know that I'm not sleeping with anyone else unless I'm in a relationship. The last guy..."

"Fucked you over. Baby, I know. My last guy fucked me over too. I know your rules and we'll stick to them but that won't stop me from trying." Yifan took a deep breath and looked over at me. "You've got Chanyeol for that. Until you figure out who you want just keep up what you have with him. You'll get the best of both worlds. Just know that you will eventually have to choose. You can't just keep stringing us alone." I knew that he was right and I knew that I needed to make a choice but why does it have to be so soon? "We've been dating for three and a half months, Kyungsoo. I know I said I'd wait. I've said it plenty of times but it's not really fair to me or Chanyeol. I know that the pain is still fresh but that doesn't mean that you can just date both of us for months on end. Just promise me that you'll think about choosing one of us. I don't want to keep pining for someone who's sleeping with another man every night."

I sighed and looked out the window. "Yifan, if I made a choice right now I know who I'd choose. But I'm scared. I'm scared because choosing means that I'm allowing another man into my heart and that means giving you the chance to break it. I'm scared of that happening again."

"You said giving 'you' the chance. Did you mean you as the man you'd choose or you as in me? Cause it could be a slip of the tongue. I mean if it was that's okay." Leaning over I pressed my lips to his.

"You as in Wu Yifan. I'd choose you." I could feel him smile against my lips and I couldn't help but to do the same. "So, are you saying what I think that you're saying? Are we boyfriends?" I nodded and kissed him again. "Well, then how about we go see this last place and then we go back to my apartment and I fuck your brains out?" I couldn't help but to laugh at his choice of words. "I am in no way opposed to that suggestion, boyfriend."

–

"So, you're telling me that you're dating him now?" I nodded my head slowly. "You and me we have sex. But we've never gone out or tried to make it anything more than that. I just felt like it was time to make a choice and he makes me happy, Chanyeol. I didn't think that I'd be this happy so soon after everything happened but I am." Chanyeol smiled. "I'm happy for you. As long as he treats you right I am team Yifan. I know that means that I go back to sleeping on my pull out bed and that's fine. Actually, do you think it's time that I get my own apartment? I wouldn't be leaving because we've stopped what we were doing. I just don't to make Yifan uncomfortable with me still staying here plus I really want my own bed again." He laughed. "Yeol, if you want to go find your own place I won't be mad at you. I can see why you'd want to do that. I can help you look for a place if you want? Wait! There's a one bedroom open upstairs. You can call and see about it, tomorrow."