Stuck In The Dark

Chapter 11

Ever since the party no one has mentioned what happened. We were all sitting in Luke's living room in silence.
"We should take a road trip" I blurted out. Everyone gave me a strange look.
"I think it would be fun" Emily exclaimed.
Luke put his arm around me.
"I'm up for it" he smiled at me. I know he is trying to make me as happy as he can.
"Sounds cool but where?" Brin says.
"We could take my uncles Van. He also has a cabin about four hours away from here!" Cory Mentions.
"That sound great!"
"Wait but we have have a gig up at Ronnie's Sunday night"
"What if we leave tonight? We can just skip school Friday and leave early Sunday morning?" I exclaimed.
"Sounds like a plan!" Everyone left Luke's house to go pack except me.
"Do you really want to do this....?" I asked Luke. He smiled at me. He brushed his hand against my jaw line. I smiled at him. He didn't answer me. Instead he kissed me. Our bodies collided against each other. He pulls his shirt off throwing it on the ground, taking mine also. He throws me onto the couch.

"ow there is something hard poking me" I laughed.

"i'm sorry" He smirked. I hit him on the chest laughing.

"It's a chicken wing, why the hell is there a chicken wing stuck in your couch?" I exclaimed. He looked at me and bursted out laughing. He rubbed his hand on the back of his head. Something he does when he doesn't know what to say. So he just grabbed me hard making me grasp for air and kissed me.

"Well..." he stopped. He drug his finger down my stomach to the tip of my pants. We both got off track. We both laid there silent. His body hovered over mine. Each breath he takes gets stronger. I know what hes thinking. I tilt his head up so he can meet my eyes. My body is shaking. I kiss him with all strength I have. He forces himself away with a worried look. Both of us breathing heavily.

"Are you sure you want to do this?" he questions. I'm a virgin. Well I at least count myself as one. Rape doesn't count to me. But I left that in the past. I always wanted to wait for the perfect person. Someone I would never regret. He could tell I was scared. I smile a little.

"yes" he grabbed my body. I wrapped my legs around his waste. He carried me up stairs. Both are tongues entwined together. I have never felt so happy. He is my everything. He grabbed a condom out of his drawer. I am constantly telling myself don't chicken out. I think I said it so many times I accidentally said it out loud. He stopped before carrying on. I felt tears roll down my face. Not because i'm scared, but because I love him so much. I never pictured someone loving me the way he loves me. Someone looking at me the way he looks at me, kissing me the way he kisses me.

"what's wrong" he sounded scared like he did something wrong. I looked him in the eyes, and wrapped my arms around his neck and said, I love you. I crashed my lips against his blocking out every worry. His body was warm against mine. Both of us were naked under the sheets. He was so gentle on me.

We laid in bed speechless. His arms were wrapped around me. Our clothes were scattered all over the floor. My heart is beating like crazy. This is something I know I won't regret.

"I love you Ella, I would like to keep cuddling you, but everyone will be here ready to go in thirty minutes" we both laughed.

"why did I plan this trip, i'm so stupid, you guys probably don't even want to go" he frowned.

"you are not stupid. Trust me they want to go, I want to go. I just want to be anywhere you are". I smiled at him. He kissed me on my nose. We both got our clothes on.

"Hey we are here" I hear Cory shout from down stairs.

"Shit Luke my my shirt is down there" I exclaimed. He started laughing.

"This is not funny" I moaned.

"It kind of is"

"Hey I found this shirt....." Cory was standing at the door way i'm in my shorts and a bra. I grabbed the shirt out of his hands. I could feel my cheeks turn bright red. We all walked down the steps. Cory is laughing his ass off.

"Hey what was going on up there?" Emily questioned. I shot her a death glare. Brin and Cory are grinning.

"What, I don't get it" Emily isn't really the brightest. She's never even made out with a guy before.

"Ella just had sex for the first time" Brin exclaimed. I slapped my hand on my head totally embarrassed. Luke thought it was funny.

"Can we just go... please" I begged. We all got into the van driving away. Cory and Brin were in the front, Emily was in the second row and me and Luke were in the back.

"I can't believe you just had sex" Emily exclaimed.
"Drop it" I warned her. Luke grabbed me and kissed me on my head laughing under his breath. I dug my face into his chest smelling his cologne.

"are you tired?" he questioned. I shrugged. sometimes I don't know why I feel the way I feel, it's just how depression goes. Part of me wanted to cry. I started to feel really emotional and dizzy.

"Luke..." He grabbed my hand trying not to let the others notice.

"Are you okay?" he whispers.

"I don't know. I just feel... sad" he cradles me in his arms. I saw Cory look up through the mirror. I guess everyone heard us. I don't really mind, I just want the pain to stop.

"Here" I turn to look at Luke. He has my pills in his hands.

"Luke i don't...." he puts his finger against my lips to shut me up. I hate taking the pills. I grab the pills from his hands and swallow them. I feel like i'm going to ruin this trip. I feel my eyes start to drift off. I let them go because i'm safe in Luke's arms. I couldn't be happier.