the fallen angel

chapter 14

Avions POV

i wake up and hear some noise from downstairs, i get up and go downstairs and see andy, i go and sit on the bench and look down at my hands, i then feel andys hand go underneath my chin, he lifts my head to look at him and he kisses me, i sink into the kiss, when he pulls away i look back down 'you okay?' he asks 'andy, you know im fucked up, i always do this' i say 'avion, your not fucked up' he says 'yes i am' i say looking up 'no you are not' he says 'yes i am!' i say as someone walks in the house 'ashley fuck off!' i yell 'its not ashley and im not fucking off' i hear jinxx yell 'ah shit im leaving' i say getting up to walk out of the house, as i walk past him, jinxx grabs my arm to stop me from leaving 'fuck off!' i yell and rip my arm away and leave, slamming the door behind me.

andys POV

'whats wrong with her?' jinxx asks 'uh, she was saying shes fucked up so i said she wasnt and then she kinda just yelled at me' i say 'oh' he says 'I'm just worried she's going to do something she's going to regret while she's gone and I can't stop her' I say 'andy im sure she'll be okay, she's probably just gonna end up calling one of the guys to pick her up' he says 'I guess your right, anyways why're you here?' I ask 'it's Ashley's birthday soon dickstick' he says 'oh he has a birthday?' I ask, jinxx just literally face palms.

Avions POV

I walk to a park and decide to call CC to come pick me up, after about 4 rings he answers "hey avion what's up?" He asks "can you come pick me up?" I ask "sure where are you" he asks "the park near andys" I say "okay, I'll be there in five" he says and hangs up, so I just put my phone on the ground next to me and look down into my lap.
I end up crying just before CC comes, he walks over to me and sits down with me "what happened?" He asks "I kinda god annoyed at andy and yelled at him and left" I say wiping some tears away "come with me" he says standing up" where to?" I ask "back to andys" he says "CC no" I say "yes avion, you can't always run from your problems" he says "no I'm not moving" I say "fine then" he says picking me up " CC put me down!" I say to him, he just puts me in the car and he gets in himself "CC please don't" I say, he doesn't say anything,
When we get back I just walk in behind CC and slam the door behind me, I walk past the lounge and andy and jinxx look at me, andy stands up and comes over to me "fuck off Andy" I say and go upstairs, I walk into the bedroom and sit down, I end up crying, I grab a vase off the bedside table and throw it, I then find a few knives and start throwing them at the wall, I hear someone run upstairs, it's andy, he grabs my shoulders to stop me "andy fuck off!" I yell "no I'm not leaving until you've calmed down" he says "andy I will stab you!" I yell picking up a knife, he backs away "exactly" I say, I then shit down and put the knife to my wrist "avion!" He says grabbing the hand with the knife in it, I try to rip that hand free but end up stabbing his arm "shit!" He yells, I instantly drop the knife "oh my god andy I'm so sorry! Are you okay?!" I say "yeah I'm fine" he says "no your not! Your fucking bleeding" I say starting to cry "avion I'm fine, I'll just go to the hospital" he says "andy you can't drive! Can you even see how much it's bleeding out?" I say starting to cry even more "I'll get CC to drive me then" he says "CC take andy to the hospital!" I yell as andy starts walking downstairs "shit" I start repeating, I go and sit in the corner and cry, I can believe I just did that! I hear the front door close and then hear footsteps "avion" I hear jinxx say, I look up "jinxx why didn't you go with CC?" I ask "because" I say "go, I just fucking stabbed your best friend in the arm, now go" I say "he may be my best friend but he is kinda your fiancé" he says "I know now please just leave" I say "okay, are you gonna be alright?" He asks "I'll be fine" I say as he gets up and leaves. When I hear the door close I get up and get the box from under the bed, I pick up a razor and slide it across my wrist.
I put the razor down and bring my hands to my knees and cry, my phone then starts ringing, I check the caller ID and see that it's jake, I just decline it and go downstairs to the kitchen and sit on the bench cross legged, my phone rings again and this time it's ash, oh god they're all gonna ring now aren't they, I ignore it and look at the roof, it rings again and it's CC, i decide to answer because if I don't then they're gonna keep calling 'what?' I ask 'I'm coming to get you' he says ''no your not' I say 'yes I am' he says 'CC fuck off I'm fine' I say hanging up and going to the bathroom, I sit leaning against the door and cry.