Brøkëñ Líês (Completed)

Memories

He was on top of me. I screamed. I wrestled with him. "Get off me" I was kicking and punching, but no matter how hard I hit, it was useless. I was trembling. He slit my throat.

Erick held me. I was screaming. I was awake. It was a dream? I pushed Erick away from me. "Get away from me!" He tried holding me but it was no use. Every time I looked at Erick I saw Samuel grinning.

He tried again, but I couldn't let him hold me. I was screaming my head off. He was slapping me. Samuel. "No!" I kept yelling. "No! Leave me alone!"

"Chelse. Chelse calm down." Erick was trying to get me calm, but it was no use.

I kept fighting with him. I know I hurt him, but I couldn't help myself at the moment. All I saw was Samuel. I didn't know what to believe.

My tears spilled all over. It took about an hour to get me to stop yelling. I sat on the bed rocking back and forth, with my knees to my chest, while Erick said something about food. I didn't care.

Jezebel. She handed me the blade. She looked even more miserable than she was yesterday. I didn't need to talk. We didn't. We needed this. I didn't care what Erick would think. He couldn't possibly begin to comprehend the shit I've been through.

I sat in the bathroom tub. Being sure that the door was locked, I began. It began from one on the stomach, to 10. Each time I looked in the mirror, I heard Samuel, and saw him. "Bitch! You're so useless! Worthless piece of shit!"

"Leave me alone!" I heard banging on the door.

"Chelse open the door!"

"Leave me alone!" I kept going. The blood kept falling.

"Chelse please."

That was the last I heard.

'Dear, dear Chelse. You think you're so beautiful now right? You think because you're thin you're beautiful. No! You're miserable! Worthless!' He was choking me. I can't get his hand off my neck. I struggled. I was dying.

I was being held down to the bed by so many nurses. Erick stood there. I saw Samuel. Then him. I was screaming again. "No! No! No! No!" I knew I hit a nurse. "Erick! Please help me!"

He stood next to the bed. "Samuel's here Erick. You need to help me please."

"Samuel's dead Chelse. It just a nightmare. You're going to be okay." He kissed my hand. I saw the tears.

They gave me an injection. I dozed off.

I woke up later. I was tied to the bed, Erick next to me. "Erick, what's going on." I tried getting up, but the chains held me down.

"Don't try to fight it Chelse. It's useless." He was crying.

"How could you let them do this to me?" My voice began to crack.

"Chelse. I...I had no other choice. Samuel's dead. Gone." He buried his face in his hand.

The tears were pouring down. "I still see him Erick! Everyday! When I look at you, in the mirror. Everyday! I feel him when you touch me."

"Chelse. I understand..."

I cut him off. "No! No you don't understand! How could you possibly know what I've been through?"

"Chelse, I'm sorry. I really am."

"If I could run away from you I would. I thought you were different." I turned my face away from his. I couldn't stand the thought that he did nothing to help me.

"Chelse. They're taking you away tomorrow." He entwined his fingers with mine. I let his hand go.

"To where?" Still not looking at him, I replied to his statement.

"A psychiatric hospital."

"What?! Erick! I'm not crazy and you know it!" Unbelievable. Is he even serious? I was restless. I didn't know what to do.

"They're going to get someone to talk to you babe. Someone you can tell what's happening to you to. How you feel and what you see, and all that." I turned to look at him.

I shook my head. "Erick I can talk to you. I don't need this."

"You said you see Samuel every time you look at me."

"That only happens sometimes Erick."

"It doesn't matter Chelse."

"Yes Erick, it does."

He only shook his head. "Get some sleep okay. I'll be right here."

"How the heck I'm I going to be able to sleep, when my boyfriend thinks I'm crazy?" I turned my head. "I thought you were different."

He didn't say anything, he only let out a sigh before everything turned black.

I was walking down this dark tunnel. I couldn't see anything. I could only feel. There was a light. I ran towards it. I didn't care if I couldn't see anything, I needed to reach the light. Almost there... It was moving. "No! No please! Come back!"

Erick kissed me goodbye. He said he'd visit me everyday, but I didn't get my hopes up too high. If I don't, I won't be that disappointed when he doesn't.

They lead me to this big building. I was given clothing, and a dorm. They had rules. That didn't bother me. My entire life was centered around rules.