A chance to finally find that happines

Chapter 5

Bpov
I just stood there crying. I don't know how long I stood there until I blurted out. "How could I of I've been so stupid!" I hit the wall.

"You're not stupid Bella!" I turned around to see Edward standing in the doorway.

"Then tell me way Edward bad things always happen to me. WHY DAMN IT! NOTHING EVER GOOD EVER HAPPENS FOR ME!"
I couldn't help the flood of tears that were falling.

"I don't know Bella, god I wish I did." Edward walked into the closest and stood in front of me.

"The only time I feel safe is with you Edward. I always have and never knew it was you."

"I wish I can turn back time and just waited and told you it was me Bella but I didn't. I'm sorry!"

"Why Edward?"

"Because I didn't think you would have anything to do with someone like me Bella. GOD CAN'T YOU SEE. I WAS A GEEKY KID THAT EVERYONE PICKED ON.
I WORE THE UGLIEST GLASSES. I HATED THOSE DAMN THINGS. I HID SO MUCH FROM YOU AND EVERYONE."

Edward kept pacing and pulling on his hair. "Did you really have feelings for me back in school?" I asked him.

"YES! It killed me inside every time I seen James kiss you or have his hands on you."
Then when I seen you on that football beaten unconcussion. I was crushed. I made Angela promise not to tell you it was me that took you to the hospital.
When I left I was filled with raged. So I hunted James down. I found him drinking.
That was the first time I ever beat the crap out of someone."

"Wait, is that why you had a black eye and a cut lip?" I asked him. Edward just nodded.

I closed my eyes and again I wished I didn't. "Make it go away damn it!" I fell back against the wall.

"Bella!" I felt Edward hands on my waist. I look up at him. "What is it Bella?"

"All I see when I close my eyes is my mom."

"Oh Bella what can I do?"

"Distract me." He looked into my eyes and then his lips was pressed against mine.

He traced my lips with his tongue to ask for premise explore inside my mouth which I gave him and he gave me.

He finally pulled away and leaned against my forehead. "Well that's a start." I half smiled. Edward chuckled.

The next thing I knew I was up in Edward's arms being carried out of the walk in closet.

He gently set me down until my feet hit the floor and I was standing. He walked over to my bedroom door and locked it.

Edward walked back over to me and took one hand and slowly but gently slid it across my jawline.

He pressed his lips back to mine and our tongues started to explore each other mouth.

((((not recommend for kids beyond here))))

Edward deepen the kiss. His hand slid down and went underneath the towel and wrapped around my waist and he pulled me closer to him.

I gasped at the touch of his hand on my skin. Edward pulled away and looked in my eyes and let go of me.

At that moment I wanted his hand back his touch again. It was warm and tender. It was different and I needed that.

I closed my eye's and gripped the edge of the towel and pulled it off of me and let it fall to the floor.

I may have not been physically a virgin but in my mind I still was. Because it was taken away from me the wrong way.