The Way, Squeal To Adopted By A Way.

9

I sat in the living quarters floor. The cafeteria floor where the biggest problem here, was who to sit with, and where. I haven't slept in days. I'm afraid. Afraid that if I close my eyes I'll see them. My brothers. That I'll remember times with them. It pains me to think about them now. I get flashbacks still of the moment it all started. When I first saw it start and the lights started. They terrify me. I had told the guys I needed time alone and I would find them when I was ready. That I just wanted to be alone. And they left. I haven't bothered looking in a mirror. I probably look like a mess. My eyes are probably blood shot, my hair a mess, my clothes ripped, dirty, and grimy, my skin is probably sticking to my bones, and I probably look like if been living off tumble weed for a month. I know I said I would stay strong for them, and I tried, but while looking for some of my stuff I remembered some of the guys had taken it. They used to take my stuff and lock it in theirs. So I went looking for it. I went to MK's bag and opened it. The first thing I saw was a picture. A picture of me and him on my first real day on the force. We had become best friends. It hurt me to know he had it. I didn't even know the photo was taken that day. Then I found a note that he wrote.

Dear Vampire Blood,
Shit, wait, let me retry that!
Dear Trigger,
Shit that's not how I want to do this!
Dear officer official Alex Way,
Why can't I get this fucking right?? I know how I want to do this! So why can't I fucking start this right? Ok, last try. This is it. I'm gonna get it this time. Alright! This made me laugh as I sat on his old bed remembering how he never rewrote something. He just went with it and wrote what he was thinking.
Dear Alex,
If your reading this, I'm gone. I'm dead Alex. It's the only reason I would allow you to be reading this because... I don't know anymore. You'll just see. I felt tears form in my eyes. I tried to stop them but one fell.
So here we go.
Alex, I know that by this time. I'm probably going to be an ass. I'm probably gonna try and hold you back a lot. I'm gonna probably be over protective, and over worry about you. But the truth is, is that I know you can handle yourself. I know you don't need me to nag you on and try and guide you. You don't need me to tell you to be safe, because we all know your not going to listen to someone when they say be safe. Your just gonna act no matter what. Your more than a sister to me though. I feel like any second I can't see you that you could be in trouble. That you may need me. I know I'll probably be annoying you to death from doing so and making sure. I'll probably get mad when you step out of line even if it was the right thing to do. Even though I may seem like a total ass, every night when I lay I my bunk, the only thing I think about is if you'll be safe the next day. We are more than siblings. We're best friends. And I can't shake the feeling of keeping you safe even if you don't want me to.
I remember the night you broke is out from our first hostage point. We were meant to be your saviour, but you saved us. I remember how everyday when you didn't talk to us, how worried I would get that something awful had happened to you, and if you would be able to go home to your family again. If we would get there in time to save you. I remember hearing them open your cell down and either come to take you, or throw you back in. I remember you screams when you would fight back, and the empty sound of silence when you would be put back and when some thought you had lost and we're dead. I remember the relief sound in your voice when you got that lock open. How we thought you had just changed the lock on your cell so they couldn't get to you for a little while. I remember when you jumped down from that vent and how we shocked we were. I remember our pride when you mocked those two gaurd soldiers out the way you did. I remember seeing you when you were back with your family. The look of pure happiness on your face that I had barge ever seen before, or again. I remember how you were happy with trigger with you also. It made me happy to know you were happy.
I remember worrying about you some nights after we were attacked. At the base, or in the zone base. Either way, every time I would try and stop myself, but never could. I would walk to your door, or look over at you. I know you don't like people too close to you so would always keep my distance. But I had to make sure you were safe and so I would watch you for a moment. One night after a attack, you had started screaming in your sleep when I was about to leave. I'm sure you don't remember. You screamed so loudly and seemed in so much pain that all I could seem to do was hold you and try and calm you down. You did eventually, but after that I couldn't shake the feeling of worrying more for you. Your my best friend and I would do anything for you Alex.
Since I'm dead, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for every time I was an ass and prick. I'm sorry I pushed you. Your my only family Alex. I guess that's why I was so protective of you. You seemed like the last things and person I had left or could rely on. I hope you can forgive me.
I'll miss you so much Alex.
In memory always,
Mark Kaloway. Aka MK
Ps. Pretty sure each of the guys have also left something for when they die. I don't care your going through my stuff, and feel free to snoop through their stuff. What are they gonna do? Come back from the dead?
I sobbed loudly and laid on the ground as I set the letter down. It meant a lot more to me than most would think. He was my best friend. I slowly get up and go to Daytona's trunk. He had a picture of me and him the day we got our dogs. I had been playing with trigger and was running around as he chased me. Daytona was with his dog playing tug a war. Yet another great photo I never knew was taken. I wonder how many photos I'll find that I never knew about with me in them. I placed the picture back and went up to my room. I had a photo album that had nothing in it. Thinking about it, I have a bit of stuff that I brought with me that I didn't use. I really should start going through everything. I took a marker and set the album on my lap.
My brothers in arms,
A life time of memories made in a small amount of time,
A family made in an unlikely setting,
The perfect sense of Hope! I wrote on the cover. I went back to the bunks and went through and put in every photo I could find that wasn't already in the box of memories and videos. I wrote captions beside each photo telling who the people were, and some with what was going on. I had a binder that I filled with the different letters, many of which I hadn't read.
Letters of memories and hope,
Wrote by the Canadian and American armed forces of 2018-2024,
In hope, and in love, may you always stay in my heart! I wrote on the front before setting it and the album on a shelf in the hallway between the living quarters and my room. I took the box of photos and videos and wrote, memories of hope, on the lid before putting it with the binder and album. I walked to the yard and swept up the sport areas we had. Then I went around and grabbed and weapon that was laying around or not in the armory and put them in there. I walked outside and down to the gang's base.

I see uncle G eating, nobody else was in the room.
"Hi G." I say sitting beside him.
"Hey little missy. Still glum chum?"
"Yah. I found out we have a big weapons safe hold. There's rooms that I had access to but I didn't ever go in that are pretty cool. Dang MK never told me so much stuff." I say putting my head in my hands. I see a light go off st the base. "Shit. Guess I can't leave." I say running out of the dinner and down to the base. I grab my gun and pointed it at the group of people in all black. I pressed a button on my belt and the remote guns on the walls all pointed where there was heat other than me, since I had my badge on. "Freeze." I say pointing my gun at them and walking around to the door. "Who are you? Why are you here?"
"Easy chic bitch!" One of the men says. Another kicks him.
"Don't you talk to my girl that way you fucker!" He says. "Don't you talk to her that way again!" He takes off him mask.
"Mike?" I say lowering my gun a little. He walks up to me and I hug him tightly. The others take their masks off. "Jayy, Dayvie, Tony, black veil brides! Ashley don't call me that again!" I say hugging them each.
"So what happened here. We herd something big went down but that was it." Jayy asks looking aorund. I turn the remote guns off and walk in. Everyone sits in the lounge area. I grab a broom and sweep up some yellow power from the gas that got in that was still here.
"We were attacked. A big attack from BLI. When I got here there was no going through by hand. I gassed the pace because it was no use to do anything else. There was no other survivors. I know there was nothing else to do, but I can't help but feel like I could have done something else. Everyone is dead now, because I gassed them all. BLI attacked and I stopped it, but I killed everyone in the process." I say stopping from what I'm doing and just starring at a wall. When I herd nothing I ran out of the room and into the living quarters. I went to Daytona's bunk and just sat under in, closest to the wall.
Don't be a coward you bitch. Fucking man up. You coward. You killed them, you fucking bitch. You killed them. A voice in my head said. Fuck it's back. Don't you diss me. Your the one who killed them all. No, I didn't. I was the only way. You could have set off the trank gas so that you could just walk around and stab anyone in white. Duh. I don't have that though. MK wouldn't let me because he thought I would pull pranks. It was sitting in the drawer beside you. How was I too know that?! You should have known. You were unprepared, inexperienced. Worthless. No! No! No! I sat down under a table and just looked at the ground. The others in the building slowly walked up to me and Mike crouched down and sat in front of me.
"I know what your thinking. It's not true though." He says looking sympathetically at me.
"You don't know that." I say looking down.
"Yes I do. You know they would have won if you didn't and many other killjoy would be dead by now if it wasn't for you. Think of any of those draculoids getting away, how many more would they kill? You took down a huge swarm of BLI and it took a chunk out of them. I only wish I could see Courses face right now." He said lightly laughing.
"We can actually. There are cameras around there that we have access to. I hacked into their security system a little while ago actually." I say getting up and showing him the camera on a computer we had. We laughed a Corse looked pissed. He was running around screaming at people. It was too good.
"See? Happy. Your young kido. Start acting younger and not older than us. You keep being like this your going to end up just like or with Korse. Alright? Lighten up!" Andy says putting me in a head lock.
"Also! I saw you had a trank gas. It was gone and all used up. That's why it wasn't activated for you as an option." Jake says. Well I guess your off the hook there. Yes! Something less to freak out about. Oh god I'm going crazy!