Silhouette of A Yakuza (On Hold)

Prologue

Author's Note:

Before I make you confused in this prologue, let me just clear everything regarding this part. All italicized words are some parts of the interview, some questions are raised by the author and of course I won't tell you the answers yet. Instead, I'll just show you some of the chapter's scenes just to give you an idea and those are written in unitalicized words.

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Author: It's nice to interview my mom today. It's the first time, right Mom? So just to make this conversation short, just please answer my questions, okay?

Mother: Alright, then. Go ahead darling.

Author: I know you already told me about this but can I ask you where, when, and how was the first time you met Dad?

(Ann just smiled and...)

"I think he likes you, Ann." Carol said with a smile plastered on her face. She is my co-worker here in the bar where I am working. I suddenly look at the guy she was telling me about and.. I don't know how to describe him, he's.. ugh! kind of irritating..

Author: What is your first impression for his physical appearance & personality?

(Ann is about to answer when...)

"That's annoying." I retorted and shook my head to clear my thoughts earlier.

"What? He's charming!" Carol exclaims with a cheerful smile, but a sudden cheerless face plastered on her face, "but.. he's quite..chubby.." and forms a smirk on her lips.

Author: How do you feel when Dad finally said he loves you?

(Ann suddenly cries and...)

"Watashi wa, anata ga sukidesu. (I like you..)" he sincerely said with his puppy eyes. Puppy eyes, huh? So it can't be true, right? He's probably teasing me or let's just say, he's just making fun of me! He's japanese, so he is!

How I wish he could say 'aishiteimasu' someday. Hopefully, someday..

"Hanase!! (Let me go!)" I blurted out with tears falling down from my eyes. I don't expect this to happen. He... He... He made myself fall for him just to attain his own contentment...

Without knowing his next move, he suddenly pull me off inside his car. He can't be more sadist as before but before I knew everything about him, I realized that I made a big mistake at the first place.

"Sabi ko naman sa'yo wag ka basta-basta naniniwala kahit kanino hangga't nandito tayo sa Japan. Sinulsulan ka lang naman ni Carol as if naman siya yung gusto ni Kenji. (I told you not to trust anyone as long as we're here in Japan. Carol only incited you as if she's the one whom Kenji likes.)" Ruth whispered while rubbing my back to stop me from crying intensively. She's my roommate.

"Watashi ni mōichido chansu o ataeru.. (Give me another chance..)" he said sincerely. I can see sincerity in his eyes. He cupped his hands on both sides of my arms and continues on what he's saying, "Watashi to kekkon shite kudasai (Please marry me..)" he continued and I suddenly let out sobs. Blubbering, I answered a nod while he's wiping my tears away and we shared a little moment embracing each other.

Ann: And that was the moment I felt.. I felt very happy but.. nervous at the same time. Right now, I can still feel the pain.. but consciously,  I can still accept the fact that everything about us had a happy ending though and we bear a child whom God has given me and it's you darling..

"Please tell him that his daughter is not here. And if ever she is, I don't think I can let him stroll her around the mall because soon enough, we'll regret it." I heard Mama said that to his translator. So he wants to shop Eiichiko around the mall then what will happen next? He will take her away from me? That's ridiculous. The translator's voice awakens me from my reverie when he abruptly interprets the words of Mama to him. I am hiding here at the back of the wall near the hall where they are having their conversation. I can't barely meet him now. Now that he's out of my life. And neither he could take my child away from me. Never.

"Kore kara..." he started. "I ga kiete shimaimasu.." he continued. I suddenly feel the tears running down from my eyes and so I wipe them away aggresively. "Itsumade mo." he ended and there I heard footsteps get along the hall until it fades into silence. I know Mama can't understand nihonggo but I am here listening, his words were very comprehensible but very vague to take up in my thoughts. Flashbacks coming out of my mind since we first met until the day I heard his last words.

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Author's Note:

I am now thinking that you already have an idea about the story, am I right?(I hope so coz if not, I'll revise this prologue if you want to) =)

My nose is bleeding (not literally) right now because of the japanese words, you know what I mean. The last part has no translation since I don't want to spoil you. But you can search those words if you want to - either over the internet or if you have your english-japanese dictionary.  I actually source those japanese words from my Mom, she's my translator. LOL.  =)

Sorry if this prologue took too long to update. I just had my busy schedule. Perhaps, I would be more eager to update if you VOTE and COMMENT. I'll be waiting... =)

Chapter 1 will be followed as soon as I have my free time then.

P.S.

It is good to see my own name in my own story. Haha! Do you want to expose your name in my story, too? Well, Carol & Ruth could be changed to what your name is. I actually need some names for other characters in my story, if you're interested.. just let me know =)

Regards,

Eiichiko.