Why is Luke here? I wanted it to be Calum so badly, and yet I'm disappointed, again. When is Calum ever going to speak to me again?
"Uh, Ashton, what's up with you and Calum?" Luke asks.
Well that was nice. Not even a simple hello, just straight to the cut. I know I don't have the best attitude right now, but that pisses me off. A lot.
"Nothing, okay? Why does it bother you anyway?"
"Why does it bother me? It bothers me because the band is falling apart, thanks to you guys."
"Its not my fault! He's the one acting like a stuck up brat anyways!"
My cheeks burn bright red, and I'm not sure if it's from embarrassment or anger. Why did I let this go so far? I curse myself silently, for being such a bitch. I should've sucked it up and apologised to him.
After a minute of silence, Luke takes a deep breath, and pauses before starting his sentence.
"Look, Ashton I know what happened. We saw you guys through the door, and we didn't want to interrupt, okay? Calum thinks you hate him, and he's cutting himself. Jesus Christ, I don't know why he is, but that doesn't matter. All I want is for you to fucking apologise. Please."
So many emotions flood through my mind, and I feel dizzy. I'm mixed with anger, sadness, confusion, and pity. It's almost too overwhelming, and I grab onto a chair to steady myself. What do I do?
I take a deep breath, and tell myself to relax, and calm down. I already know that isn't going to work. I open my mouth, but nothing comes out. A tear slips out of my eye, and I tell myself not to cry, I can't be a child now.
"Ashton? Are you oka-" Luke starts his sentence, but before he can finish I walk off.
I walk slowly at first, but then I break into a trot. The faster I go, the more I cry. I tell myself to stop, but I can't. I get into my car and drive back home. I know I have to apologize to Calum, but I don't know how. All I know is that I'm doing it, tonight, as soon as I get back to the hotel. I can't let things get worse than they are right now.
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Thank you guys so much for reading! I've been struggling with writers block, so I'm sorry if this chapter wasn't the best. If you liked this, make sure you spread the word and vote!!
P.S: When Ashton says, "What do I do?" I almost put, "I know I do not do math."
Sorry, I'm done.
