Adopted By 5SOS

Chapter 16

Friday. Funeral day. I get out of bed and quickly have a shower, thankful that Luke isnt up yet because if he was there wouldn't be any hot water. When im done, i stand there for a little while just thinking about mum and Jen.
I get out and dry myself before wrapping my towel around my body and looking for a dress to wear. I pick out a long, flowing black halter neck with a split down the leg that i got the last time the boys took me shopping. I put on Jen's necklace and a silver chain with mum's wedding ring on it, as well as a few gold and silver bracelets and my signet ring. I do my make up so i have a natural look but add winged eyeliner and thinck waterproof mascara and soft pink lips. I apply a temporary tattoo of a butterfly, mum's favourite animal, on my ankle that wasnt covered by the dress. Lastly, i put on some black velvet 3 inch wedge heels with ankle straps, so that the butterfly shows just above the strap. I curl my hair loosely then run my hands through it to create messy beach waves and put into a waterfall braid, then because it's blonde, i put bright blue hair chalk on the damp tips and blow dry it before spraying it to make it set.

I walk downstairs carefully so i dont trip in my heels and go to the kitchen to find four totally cute hotties, all wearing dark skinny jeans and white t-shirts, with dark flannels over the top. Ashton added a few black and grey leather bracelets to his outfit, while Luke added and dark blue bandanna and a mediterranean blue stud lip ring. Michael had a bouquet of midnight blue roses with a single white tulip, my mother's favourite, and Calum... Well, Calum is Calum... He didnt add anything to his outfit, but just seeing them all here, matchin and ready to support me at my mother's funeral made my eyes fill with tears. I walked over to them and we shared a group hug before breaking apart so i could make breakfast. I've started eating again over the last couple of days so the boys are really happy about that. But i still havent come out of my room much. Mostly i just sit there listening to music and they act pissed that im not listening to their songs... Or maybe they arent acting? I dont know...
When i finish my breakfast Ashton grabs his keys and we all pile into the car. I call shotgun so that means Mikey gets squished between Calum and Luke. Sucked in biatch!

When we get to the funeral parlour we are directed to the hall where we will be for the next hour. When everybody is seated, the man hosting the ceremony calls for order. Everybody falls silent immediately as Avril Lavigne's Keep Holding On starts to play.
When it's finished, he says 'We are gathered here today to celebrate the life of Mandi Winters, friend to many and loving mother to Annabeth Winters. I would like to invite Ms. Annabeth Winters to the front to give her eulogy.'

I wipe my eyes and slowly make my way to the front of the room. Standing at the microphone so everyone can hear me, i unfold the piece of crumpled paper and lay it on the table thing in front of me.

'My mum... Wasnt exactly the mist loving person... But when it came to me she was the worst. Even though i was shitscared of her, i stood up against her, and got her thrown in jail. After being sent away, every time i was forced to visit her she would try to make amends with me, apologizing and saying the little things that count so much... But i couldnt forgive her... I couldnt forgive her for what she did to me and what she did to my sister Jen... And i refused to accept the fact that after everything she put me through, i still loved her.. I couldnt accept it until it was too late, and i feel so bad... I'm sorry mum. I hope that you can forgive me because after all the hurtful things we said to eachother i still love you and i hope that up there in the sky you can see me and that you will be watching over me for the rest of my life. I can't wait to see you again someday. I love you mum.'
I wipe the tears from my face as i walkback to my seat. Ashton and Luke hold my hands and try to comfort me when i get there.
The rest of the ceremony flies by and i start to cry again during the hymn that Ash and i picked out, and again when they play Heaven Was Needing A Hero, and when they play the extra song Ashton picked as a surprise - Holes in the Floor of Heaven. It's a beautiful country song about a boy whose grandma died the day before his birthday and his mum told him that his grandma was watching over him, and that the rain falling from the sky was her tears as she watched him hurting...
After that song, i looked Ashton with a huge smile on my face because he chose that song that i had never heard but now meant so much to me.
The group of mourners walked across the road to the cemetery with me and five of mum's closest friend carrying the casket ahead of everyone else. We navigate our way to where she will be buried and i gasp when i see the headstone that Ashton designed with some help from the other boys. We all stand back as the casket is lowered into the ground, we then all grab a bouquet of roses with a single tulip each and let the go to drop on to the casket. Someone pulls out their phone and a speaker and plays When I Look At You by Miley Cyrus as the hole is being filled in.

When the ceremony is over, the boys an i pile into the car and i ask Ashton to put on the song he had the play as a surprise for me. I really like it. We drove home listening to Hole in the Floor of Heaven on repeat, and by the time we're halfway there. We all are singing along having memorized the entire song.

Maybe i should suggest that the boys remake this song into a punk rock overnight hit... Maybe then it would be heard by more people.. Just as im about to do just that, i drift off into a dreamless, deep sleep and i honestly feel so happy right now...

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I kniw guys.. It's really sad but i promise it'll get better next chapter... Am i on fire today or what? Imma see if i can write another one and i'll make it a happier one!! Love you guys!

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