project princess » riker lynch au {ON HOLD}

four

i was sitting under an apple tree, it surprisingly being warm enough. i had been here for only two days, and nothing's really changed. iris and priscilla have taught me some new things i hadn't known about, and rydel was trying to get me to do things "lady like".

"hey, slacker," i heard someone say. i turned around, seeing riker walk toward me. a small smile formed on my face as i greeted him.

"wassup?"

"oh, you know, the usual," he chuckled. it was weird; to be living in queens, he didn't have much of an accent.

"same."

i was continuing to draw the floral pattern i'd been working on for the past two weeks, putting small touches on the tips of the roses and such. there were wisps of pink that had made the flowers more open. i didn't quite understand what this was going to be used for, but i figured i would soon figure out a place to put it.

"whatcha drawing?" riker asked after a while.

"i dont know yet," i giggled. "i'm still figuring it out."

for the next couple of hours, we just talked. about anything, really. i had told him how i loved to draw and design things, and he told me how he loved to play music. we both agreed we would share our talents with each other soon enough.

it was nearly six pm when we decided it was time to go in. i gathered my things and dusted myself off, helping riker up in the process. somehow, due to his weight, (and my not being strong enough) we both tumbled to the ground, and he hovered over the top of me.

we both shared a laugh, and i looked into his eyes for the first time. they were hazel, but more green with tiny touched of brown. he was beautiful, but beautiful people are dangerous.

i wiggled out from under him and stood up. without another word, i turned and left him. after a while of thinking about it, i felt bad, but i didn't want to feel anything emotional towards him.

i was married, once. it was a couple of years back, i think maybe two. i was so madly in love with the guy i decided to marry, and i thought he felt the same way. for a couple of months we were trying to have a baby and never could, even when i was ovulating. i went to the doctor, and was informed that i was unable to conceive any children due to my uterus.

one day, i had come home after working and caught him cheating on me with my co-worker. she had called out that day, so that left me with a double. he had explained to me that he lost interest after finding out i was unable to conceive, and that he wanted kids, but didn't want to adopt. so about two weeks later, he divorced me and i haven't been the same ever since.

i've lost all interest in anyone, and i changed my attitude a lot. i married when i was seventeen, and it was stupid due to my age, but i thought i was in love. i moved back in with my dad after that, and i didn't care.

i'm twenty years old, and it feels horrible depending on my father because i lost my job. so that's why he sent me here, so i can "change my attitude, and be a better person".

i don't like depending on people at all, but what i hate most is, having feelings toward someone and knowing they feel the same way. so, i push away everything i've ever felt toward anyone and remain emotionless.