Believe

chapter 19

A/N hey guys, this is chaper 19, it is one year later, there is a few flashbacks on sarahs pov just so you can get the jist of what has happened over the year, i hope you enjoy this chaper and remember to vote and comment your thoughts MuchLove xoxo GothicTink

Justins pov

I was so excited, I have finally released my new single 'heartbreaker' and its doing alot better than what i thought, i couldnt help but scream as i jumped up and down on the couch, i couldnt be more happy.

As i thought about happiness i stopped jumping up and down, frowning as i sat on the couch, i wish Sarah was here to experience this moment with me.

"whats up buddy?" Scooter asked pulling me out of the thought that kept cropping up 'where is she?' i looked up at him meeting his gaze as his smile faded into a look of sorrow, "its been a year Scooter... A fucking year! you told me she would call! why hasnt she called? She keeps in touch with Emily but not me! she doesnt love me anymore does she?" i questioned as i could feel tears prick the back of my eyes at the mere thought of her and that one word that made everything right 'love'

"i know its been a year Justin, i know i said she would call, things just take time, she will call, you should be happy that she keeps in touch with Emily, at least you know she is safe but she obviously doesnt want to be found yet, Emily says she is doing well" he explains taking a pause for breath as i turn my gaze to the floor "of course she loves you, Emily tells you all the time" he continues.

I stand up bringing my gaze back to him running my hands through my hair and tugging at the ends "but i want to hear it from her Scooter! I want to hear her voice, i want to see her" i basically yell, dropping my hands from my hair "Emily hasnt seen her this past year either, she doesnt even know where she is but what if her ex finds her? oh my god what if he finds her?" i express, shock evadent in my voice at my own question, i begin to pace the room back and forth trying to figure all of this out.

"Justin! calm down, you have alot of time before you tour for your next album why dont you take that time to visit your family and have a break for a while? you have worked so hard and you deserve this break" he asks calmly, i stop pacing and turn to look at him "okay, i will book a flight" i reply defeated.

Im not going to visit family, im going to book a flight to the UK and make a start to find Sarah, the only place i can think to start is her moms and just pray that her mom will take the time to talk to me and maybe give me an idea of where she is "good, a break will do you good" Scooter smiled at me as i returned with a nod.

I will still have time to visit my family over the coming months.

I picked up the phone and called the travel agents managing to get a flight out tonight with Kenny of course, i then booked the hotel rooms and cars etc now all i had to do was find her.

**the next day**

I was being shook gently "we're hear Justin, wake up" i heard Kenny whisper, i felt groggy as i rubbed my eyes, i had slept through the whole flight, hopefully i woulf feel better in fresh air.

no-one knew i was back in the UK which had to be a good thing, no screaming fans, no paparazzi, just peace all around me, i took a deep breath of air instantly relaxing and feeling so much better.

We walked out of the airport without being noticed or bringing attention to ourselves, we climbed into the waiting car headed for Durham from Newcastle airport, i just hope and pray that  i can find her.

"you okay bud?" kenny asked, i turned my gaze to face him from the outside traffic letting a small smile form on my lips "yeah, i just want to find her" i reply dropping my gaze to the floor, "i know bud, you will, im sure of it" i could tell he smiled at this point but i didnt look at him, "i hope so" was all i could reply at this moment.