Believe

Chapter 8

Hey there, im back lol this chapter has mature content and scenes of a violent nature so descresion is advised... Enjoy!!

Sarahs pov

"OH MY GOD" i screamed and slammed the door in his face and leaned up against it with my back to the door, "Sarah, open the door" he asked calmly, "No" i yelled back "please?" he asked again calmly, "why are you even here?" i asked, this time a bit calmer, "I was an inconvenience to Scooter and Emily, Sarah please open the door??" he seemed to be begging and i couldnt resist anymore, "okay, on one condition" i asked "whats that? anything" he seemed more desperate now "please, dont stare at me" i replied loud enough for him to hear, "deal" and i could hear the happiness in his voice.

I opened the door slowly, walked towards the couch and sat down, i heard the door close, i kept my head down, still looking at the floor so he couldnt see my face, he sat down next to me, put his arm around me and pulled me close, i began to sob into his chest "im sorry" i said, still keeping my head down, "oh my god baby, why are you sorry?? you have nothing to be sorry for" he replied sounding a bit upset himself, "because of the way i look, because im crying" i sobbed harder into his chest while he kept me close.

He suddenly pulled away from me and gently grabbed my chin bringing my gaze to meet his "you are beautiful, inside and out, never forget that" he smiled at me, a very gentle and sorrowful smile "you really think so??" i asked, dazed by his gentle words, again he gave me his gentle smile and replied "i know so" i smiled up at him then quickly averted my gaze back to the floor "do you want to know?" i asked in almost a whisper, "only if you want to tell me" he replied, maybe i should tell him, it might give him an idea of why i am the way i am "okay i'll tell you" i brought my gaze back up to him, let out a long shaky sigh and began...

*Flashback*

I got in from work, its been a cheerful day as always, everyone from work was joking and laughing and i felt happy for a change. I walked through my front door to the stench of alcohol, cigarettes and something that smelt like it had died, i wreched at what myhouse had become, i headed into the lounge where the smell got stronger to find my boyfriend playing xbox, thats all he ever did.

"im taking a shower" i announced so he could hear me over the game, "aye, whatever, stop interupting me!!" he yelled and turned back to face his game, i ran up the stairs, into the bathroom and locked the door. Thats my happyness gone, i started the shower to let it heat up so i washed my face and brushed my teeth while i waited, i looked out of the frosted window to notice it was getting late and i had another early start at work, i stepped in the shower and let the heat of the water seduce my skin, i washed my hair and body letting the suds gather then the water making them disappear, i stepped out of the shower feeling refreshed and wrapped a towel around my body.

I headed for the bedroom and was met by him standing in the middle of the room wearing only his boxers "let me fuck you darling" he said, i flinched at the thought but nodded just to please him, i made my way over to the bed and layed down on the cool sheets, he unravelled my towel so it drapped on both sides making me feel exposed, he had and evil smirk on his face "i want to ask you something and i want an honest answer" he said matter-of-factly, "okay?" i questioned back, wondering where this was headed, "have you been seeing that dam colleague of yours behind my back?" he said through gritted teeth, "i see most of my colleagues outside of work" i argued back, "NO!! HAVE YOU BEEN FUCKING HIM BEHING MY BACK!!" he yelled in my face ""what?? no, of course not" i replied in almost a whisper as i was now feeling terrified as to what was going to happen, "okay, if thats how you want to play it" he said and his evil smirk returned, what the hell was he going to do to me.

He pinned me to the bed and i screamed as he rammed into me, searing pain ran through my whole body, i had felt nothing like it, he rammed into me again and again when finally he was finished, i let out a small sob and curled into a ball as he got off me, "stay there! im not done with you yet" and he left the room, i was in too much pain and too terrified to move, he returned and grabbed my legs to straighten me on the bed, he pinned my arms with his legs and i noticed he was holding a pair of scissors, holy shit, "what are you going to do?" i wimpered, "im going to give you what you deserve Bitch, lye still" 

He leaned down towards my face and ran his tongue along my cheek before whispering in my ear "im only doing this because i love you" i started to panic, my breathing quickened and heart rate went sky high, he leaned back, opened the scissors and ran them along my cheek "i never want you to leave me" he smirked, i felt a burning pain in my cheek and quickly realised he was calving at my face, i let out a scream hoping to god someone could hear me, he took the scissors to my face again and i screamed louder until everything went black.

*end of flashback*

"when i woke up i was lying in a hospital bed with my mam sitting on a chair next to me with a concerned look on her face before she dived onto me and  gave me a cuddle" i finished, Justin just stared at me open mouthed, like he couldnt believe what he was hearing, he finally snapped out of it when he realised i had stopped talking "if you dont mind me asking, where is he now??" he asked concern written all over his face, "well... its been just over a year, he actually pleaded guilty in court which was a surprise to me, i got compensation, he did 8 months in prison, i got a restraining order and to be honest i dont know where he is now and he doesnt know where i am" i shrugged, "im so sorry" he said "it wasnt your fault" i replied, "i will make sure nothing ever happens to you again, i cant bare the thought of someone hurting you" he said with a sincere smile "im a big girl, im strong willed" i replied giving him a polite smile in return.

He pulled me into a hud which i didnt expect, he pulled me close and i almost couldnt breath but i didnt care, i returned the hug by wrapping my arms around his back while he left a long, lingering kiss on the top of my head, im so glad he understands.