I awoke to find a nurse like almost in my face. WTF!
"Oh good you're awake I need to prepare you for surgrey. "
I remembered everything and sighed and a tear went down my cheek. I looked over at a sleeping Sarah and Andy.
I kissed Andy on the lips and watched his eyes flutter open then he quickly wiped the tears off my face. He kissed me back and the rude nurse was motioning him to get up. He got up but he kept holding my hand while shaking Sarah awake.
She awoke and it hit her where she was and she didn't speak either. We kept silent until they rolled me to surgery. I wish Andy was there holding my hand as they put me to sleep but then again I didn't want him to see the Beautiful remains of our baby.
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I awoke to J kissing me and I saw tears streaming down her face. I quickly wiped them away then saw a nurse motioning me out of the bed. I hopped up but still held Jade's hand and woke her sister up.
Sarah saw where she was and automatically looked depressed. We all kept silent until she was wheeled out. I kept texting the guys updates silently crying the entire time.
Jayy and Dahvie texted saying they're coming soon as well did Taylor after birth told them what happened.
Like a hour later they wheeled her back in the room and she had a bug stitch over her stomach.
It pained me and Sarah. J was knocked out cold but you could see tears now and then. I laid next to her once again my hand stroking her hair then putting my hand over her covered stomach.
I texted the guys Bret and Jayy and Dahvie and Taylor saying she got out of surgery and they could come over now. I also texted Kriss the bunny if he wanted to come.
About ten minutes later Bret came in looking incredibly sad. Like me. He went and sat next to Sarah and tried to comfort her.
The guys came in one by one and Bret got up and got replaced by Ash and the guys standing against the wall.
Still nobody spoke tears were either being spilled or trying to be kept in. Taylor and Kriss came in. Kriss wasn't wearing his bunny ears... Which was kinda weird.
Finally my baby woke up right as Jayy and Dahvie came in. I then noticed this place was filled entirely by band people or friends of band people.
J looked around and put on a fake smile and sat up with me. She winced a little as the pain shot through her for moving. Then the doctor came in.
" Ahh I see you are up.... " He seemed terrified by the fact this place was filled with people and each of them wearing makeup of some kind.
" Well we have some more bad news as well. " She held my hand extremely tight.
"The fetus damaged the tube and we had to remove it as well to obtain you not being in pain every single day so you will not be able to reproduce at all. "
My jaw dropped. No kids of our own? None to remind me of J everyday I look at them? She put her hands on her face and started to cry more. The doctor left and everyone gathered around the bed with sympathy in their eyes.
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I awoke to see all my friends there and I fake smiled trying to forget what had happened but the sympathy they were giving wasn't exactly helping. The doctor came in saying he had more bad news.
FUCK!
I held Andy's hand tighter.
"The fetus damaged the tube and we had to remove it as well to obtain you not being in pain every single day so you will not be able to reproduce at all. "
My face dropped into my hands as the Doctor left the room and I cried and everyone gathered around us. A nurse said we could go home when we wanted to.
I grabbed the change of clothes Ash brought me along with some eyeliner. He knew me so well. I trudged into the bathroom and pulled on the red Ripped Dress tshirt and some basketball shorts that were baggy and did my eyeliner real dark.
I walked out and Andy took my hand and we walked down the hallway our friends following us behind.
Andy had to go on tour very soon considering this was a break they were on. I sighed and hung shame as we walked to the car. Next time I see that bitch she's fucking dead!
I wouldn't be surprise if Andy left me because let's face it I'm useless now I can't give him kids if we get married.
Everyone drove out of the parking lot and followed us to the Bvb house.
As we drove I thought about getting a tattoo done in remembrance. Maybe a little bat or fairy or flower.
We arrived home and we sat on the couch as everyone poured in.
" You OK J? " Bret asked.
" Yeah ill be fine. "
We watched some movies and Kriss Taylor and Jayy and Dahvie had to go because the had to get back to their bands.
I invited Blake and Slade over and they were here within minutes. I stood up to hug them and Bret came over and we group hugged.
" I love you guys thanks for being there and staying with me threw alot of shit. " We broke the hug and I got out my song book and started writing some lyrics as everyone watched a movie.
I was in the kitchen and Andy came in and I stopped and closed the book.
" Baby I'm so sorry. " He apologized.
" It's not your fault babe. "
" Yes it is first I kissed the bitch whore and second forgot to use a condom that one time on warped tour. " He looked down.
" It's alright let's just forget about the past baby I love you. " I raised his head and kissed him.
" I love you too. " I smiled.
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The mood lightens soon I promise. Check out my Bret Von Dehl story This is A Song for The Forgotten.
