I stand in the lurking shadows
blending in.
Wondering if you were to
notice if I were to just
simply fade away?
I try to reach,
even when it is not in my way,
and you recieve.
And yet you do not
reach out in return.
Why?
After everything we've
seen and done,
still,
you turn away.
Why?
Does that mean nothing to you?
Am I nothing to you?
If only you knew how
deeply that peirces my heart..
How unwanted and alone that
makes me feel feel.
How ugly and rejected the feeling
deep within,
inside me.
I try and try,
but you pull away.
Why?
What is wrong with me?
What have I done?
Oh,
my dear friends,
do you know what it is like?
How it feels?
To be ignored and uncared about
by the only people in the world
you have ever reached out to?
Well do you?
To have steady ground that crumbles
beneath your unknowing feet?
I do.
I do, everytime I reach out and you ignore.
Everytime
I have wanted to end it all.
To slice and slice,
and watch in helplessness
as the fellings,
all of them,
drain out.
And on to the surface of me for
all to see.
If only you knew,
how much it is
needed.
Your friendship and caring is?
How it could have helped out so
much.
Must I spell it out?
Or
are the marks on my skin
not enough to make you stop and think?
Does anything
need to be said?
Will you miss me?
If I am gone?
If I just fade away?
Will you realize that you could
have stopped it all?
Love, caring and happyness,
are all binded as one.
Take one and the
others are left to dwell in another place as
well.
Once,
if ever you have realized what
you have done.
It will be too late.
For I will have long come and gone.
Taken by deaths open arms,
for it is the only one that
cares.
Taken from lifes
last misery.
As my world, my sight, and
my eyes grow
darker and fainter.
At long last,
taken by my own
bloody hand,
by the blade against my skin.
Searing and tearing
my veins wide open.
Will you miss me at all?
Will you care at all?
Love,
it is the most beautiful
yet the most painful thing imaginable.
At least in my life.
Especially, when it is not there.
You could have helped out with that.
But you didn't.
Even when the signs were
all there.
You didn't care.
So goodbye.
You're too late.
