If Only I Could Stay...

Chapter 6

Uh I think I'll just stay here."

"I said lets go,now."Parker said demanding."

"And I said I want to stay here. I just come out the hospital and I want to go home not be by a stupid crummy probs dirty and trashy lake."

Just great" I thought." Parker quickly become furious his eyes got so bright and livid  I thought they were gonna burn through my own set of eyes. His face turned purple as he held his breath with both of his fist clenched causing his knuckles to turn paper white. Finally the chance I could have actually known him I ruin it by saying crap about a place that probably had sentimental value to him. After about two minutes of staring into space Parker took hold of my arm with a firm grip and dragged me back to his car. I instantly sunk into the car. he forcefully  slammed the passenger door shut almost smashing my finger and stiffly walked to the driver side.

As he got into the car he immediately turned the car on and sped out the parking lot into the main road.

"Parker I'm so sorry I'm so fucking stupid I know-- "

"JUST STOP FUCKING TALKING OKAY I DON'T GIVE A SHIT!!"Parker shouted loud enough to make the whole car rumble."

Parker scared me so bad I sat there in completely stunned in silence until I  notice how fast we were going,  the fact that he was crying and that this wasn't the way home.

"Parker slow down. "
"Now parker."

PARKER SLOW THE FUCK DOWN!" I screeched"

As we come up to a red light the cars were turning right in front of us and Parker wasn't making any attempt to slow down.

PARKER!!!

Two more inches and we would have  hit he truck and at the speed we were going there was no possible way of us Making it out alive...making it out alive. I Haven't had kids, gotten married or even have a proper family,  a stable home and that easily could've all been taken away from me. my chance at a happy life was almost gone because of Parkers reckless driving and I was furious. I bet Parker had everything.  A mom a dad maybe even a sibling. Lived in a big house with rich parents and has the perfect life everyone wish they could have. maybe for him he's gotten everything he wanted out of life, but for me I had so much I still wanted from life  and I was certainly gonna make him understand that.

As we past the truck Parker slowly stopped to car and parked next to a huge blue building that I never have seen before.

What the living hell where u thinking? Maybe you think have life figured out and your home life is perfect and you live in this perfect little world but for people like me, people that want more from life before its taken away from them they don't want to be in situations where its a possibility. This world has stripped everything I love and care about away from me and it will give me something back in return before I leave it. Understand?

As I looked from the building to Parker I saw how much damage my words actually did. He was crying. Not bawling but still there were tears. Even though he took me to an unknown place, was a jackass my first few minutes of school and almost killed me I felt like all of that could never match how much I did to him with my words. He brung me to a sentimental place and I made fun of it. All I could do was the one thing I thought I could never ever do. I hugged him. Not a short pat on the back but I got out the car went the drivers seat sat in his lap and hugged him.

The  steering wheel was prodding me in my back but I didn't care. Parker needed someone to comfort him and since I did all of this damage I might as well try to fix it.  Surprisingly he gripped my waist and tucked his head into the crook and cried. Something like this I never expected but I guess everyone has a hidden side that they don't want anyone to know that seems to come out at the wrong moments.

I'm so sorry I shouldn't have made fun of the lake. It is important to you and I never should have said bad things about it. That was all my fault don't think for a one damn second this was yours. And I lied it was beautiful I've never seen something so gorgeous in my life I was just scared and in pain and... I can't explain how sorry I am.

"Ca you pes ge out my ap."

"What."

"Can u uh..."
"Uh ya. Don't have to tell me twice." I lightly chuckled"
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The drive home was quit and peaceful. For the first time I actually enjoyed the silence between us. I appreciated this moment with Parker.

As we come to my house nothing was said. I got out the car and skipped towards the door so blessed to finally be home. Which is something I haven't said in about 5 years.