If Only I Could Stay...

Chapter 8

"Hey Eli how was ur day at school. "my mom chirped out my from the kitchen."

"Great thanks for asking but I'm just gonna go to my room."

"Uh ok sweetie...I'll call when dinner is ready."

"Okay thanks mom, love you."

"I love you too Eli."

Before I left I planted  a small kiss on her forehead. I knew she was worrying about what happened at school I could see it on her face so I told her everything is perfectly fine.(lies).School was worse than yesterday since everyone knew about the incident. People I never knew and never wanted to know said they're sorry or looked at me like a was a unknown species. Even the teachers treated me like I was a fragile piece of glass going to break at anytime. They constantly asked me if I needed help,if I was was okay or asked if I needed to go to the counselor for no reason. Lunch was even worse. I had no where to sit and the way people looked at me made their point known that they didn't want me sitting there. So to sum it all up school was a fucking nightmare.

As I walked into my room there he was shirtless,like usual. I quickly twirled around the other way but not completely so I wouldn't block out the sun. it's the only thing that I actually like about moving. No matter what location I was in it would always rise and set reminding me everyday is a new day and that as long as it continued I still had time for my life to become something greater. The new window was definitely a good view for I could see every time the sun would set. 

"Can u close ur damn window so I can do what I need to in peace. "Parker yelled at me through his window."

"Jackass close yours if you want ur privacy so bad."

"Shut up BANG."

I knew he would close it sooner or later. Even though I asked him to close it a part of me was wishing he wouldn't. that maybe for once he could get out of his mood and sit on the windowpane and talk to me for once without arguing or attitude in every sentence. But then again it was just a wish.

With nothing to look at  I decided I should think. Think about why he even had to be in my life? why does he want me dead so bad? why is chasing me? why does me want to ruin my life? when I it was only an accident. I never meant to hurt  Coda. she meant everything to me. she was my life and I never meant to take hers. Why chase me for 8 years when it was just an accident? I knew exactly why, but admitting it even to myself would kill me.

                         Parker's POV
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"Parker honey can u come downstairs for a second please. "

"Sure Amber." 

"We need to talk about your dad for a second." Amber said softly trying not to anger me at the mention of him."

"No I'm going back upstairs." I said walking back in the direction."

"Parker please stop wait it's important. "Amber said running to me."

Amber if it's about you and my dad getting divorced or y'all having marriage difficulties I already know. I hear y'all all the time non stop arguments okay so it's not a big surprise so stop acting like it is.

At this point she was in tears. I hope she doesn't get all sobby on me because right now I have way to much on my mind to worry about something like this.

"Honey your in the hospital because he overdosed on some of his old medication." Amber said finally bursting out in a full flood of tears."

What??No ur kidding this can't be happening. When I thought nothing could get worse this happenes. What do I  do now I can't just not go but I don't think he really wants me to be there? I can't see him not right now but where do I go. I can't do this by myself and the guys are just gonna try to make me go to the hospital. I can't believe I'm saying this but I only have one place to go, once place left I feel safe.