The Only One [FaZe Apex Fanfiction.]

Chapter 1

[1st person POV]

                               Hi. My name is Sierra. I'm an 18 year old gamer. But... I'm also very depressed and I'm recovering from self harm. I used to do this because my ex-boyfriend raped me when I was 15 years old. This is how it happened; I was 15 at a pool party with my at the time boyfriend, Eric. He was much older then me, 18 to be exact.There are drinks of course but I don't drink, Eric on the other hand gets totally wasted. He started looking at my body in a very sexual way. I started to get very uncomfortable. Not to mention I had my bikini on. Keep in mind, I'm still a virgin and when I looked at Eric's devilish smile I got so scared my heart dropped. I quickly put my clothes on and took Eric to the hotel we got for the night. We walked into the room and I go to the bathroom to freshen up to go to bed. When I come back I see Eric sitting on the bed with his private parts out, slowly rubbing it. I tell him to stop and just go to bed, but before I could say anything else he grabs my arm and starts pulling thick strands of silk out of his overnight bag, like he planned this whole thing out. At this point, when he started tying me to the bed, I realized what was going on, I struggled and kicked and screamed, but that just resulted in him tying me harder and also putting a gag in my mouth. This was my first time and all i could think about was my best friend FaZe Apex. I loved him and was starting to develop feelings for him, i wanted to save myself for him. I thought to myself, now he's never going to want me. I just shut my eyes and cried while he did what he had to do to please himself. I asked him why? Why are you doing this to me? His only answer was, " You look so sexy I'm a bikini, and your body, oh my god you're the hottest girl ever." This made me cringe, he called me hot, when Apex called me beautiful. I was thinking about Apex and how he always made me feel better when I was down. After what felt like 3 hours he finally let me go, gave me my clothes ad phone. Before I left, he said, "You don't want to know what will happen if you tell anyone what just happened, "And with that I walked out the door and called Apex on my phone. He answered screaming into the phone "WHATS WRONG!?' I smiled to myself, through the tears pouring down my face, knowing he's protective over me. I asked him if he could pick me up and he said he would be there in 5 minutes. A couple minutes pass and Apex texts me saying he's in the front of the hotel. I was so relieved to see his black Camaro and him standing there holding the door open for me, I ran into his arms, I was just so happy to see him, I looked him in the eyes and he wiped my tears away and asked me what was wrong. I told him I have something to tell him and we both climbed into the car. I asked him if I could stay at the FaZe house and he seemed more then excited to have me over there. He kept asking me of what happened and I kept answering with, "You'll find out when we get to the house." I just needed time to think about how I was going to tell him with out all the other room mates barging into his room, because I only wanted to tell him at the moment. We were quiet the rest of the ride and I was thinking and processing what just happened, while Apex was focused on the road and I think he was also trying to think of what I had to tell him. We arrived at the house and I asked if I could take a shower, he said of course. I loved how he wasn't rushing me to tell him what happened. I got in the shower and was thinking. thinking about what happened. Asking my self questions. What if Apex yells at me? What if he wont want to be around me anymore? What if I just cant get any words out at all? That's when I started to get worried, so I turned off the shower and quickly got dressed, brushed me hair and teeth and with my head down walked to Apex's room. I knocked quietly and politely for him to open the door and form the inside I heard a "YO" I smiled to myself and opened the door. Apex was sitting on his bed with his phone in his hands scrolling. He looked up and smiled. I sat down next to him and laid my head on his shoulder and sobbed quietly.

A/N: For this story there most likely will be longer chapters. Please leave comments if you like/don't like about the story. Thank you ❤️