Unlikely (BWWM)

Chapter 3

Walking with Karlie on my hip still crying. Im done with trying to make her calm down. I couldnt calm Ethan down so why would I be able to calm his daughter? Expecially after what happened tonight. I think we are both in pain, I think she knows she lost a part of her but she doesnt know what part and who she lost. Ive known Ethan for almost 7 years now. He never once made me feel bad about being black. He has chosen his brother over me multiple times but they were always close so I didnt mind.

The thought that keeps going through my mind haunts me the most. If I woulve went to the closet he wouldnt be driving and this wouldntve happened. Its all my fault.

Im nowhere near home and it starts to pour down rain. I cover Carrie with her blanket. Im passing through a quiet rich neighbor hood. All these big million dollar houses... its weird because right behind all the lavash its a poverty based neighnorhood. Sometimes I would see Ethan over by my house when im waiting for the bus or something. He always says something if he sees me, I try to dodge hin but Ryan, some gangbanger, usually catches me and calls me out.

"Karlie!" I hear my name being shouted and I turn to look as a wimdow is rolling down.

Its Ethan.

"What do you want? Can you just wait til tomorrow at school? Ive been through enough" I try to walk faster but hes in a car so its no use.

"What happened to your face?"

I turn to him and he slams on breaks "Just leave me alone!" More tears rolling down my face. "Ive been through enough and you make it no better" that statement made me laugh. "I get that you like making me cry. You enjoy that but I dont. Yes im black. Yes im not the skinniest person ever. Yes im poor. Yes I dont wash my clothes everyday. But I just lost someone important to me, your brother! That should count as something! So please just leave me the hell alone!" Im tired and Carrie is quiet by the time I finish my speech.

"Fucking broke bitch." He trys to mummble but I hear it nice and clear. I keep walking and right before I cross the street he zooms past me and through a big ass puddle of water that spashed a huge wave over me and Carrie.

"Carrie what am I going to do?" Tears pour down my face like a waterfall. Matty gave me money when I needed it so I could support Carrie. But he never knew I used it somethimes for rent and food when my dad couldnt.

While walkimg back home, I think of all the bullshit that lead my life up to now. Im so lost and I bragged Carrie into it. When we make it back home. I lay Carrie down on my bed and fall asleep next to her. I try to fall asleep but I cant so I call the hospital and ask them about my dad. They said they admitted him and will have to hold him for atleast a week. I didnt ask about Matty, I think I was just scared to be comfirmed.

I wake up to Carrie crying and notice shes on the floor. "Oh shit! Mommys sorry baby girl. Im sorry!" I try to soothe her but it isnt really working. I hear a loud knick at the door like someone is about to break it down. "Is that what woke you up?" Who the hell is knocking on this door so early in the morning? CPS usually comes around 2 or 3. I look at the clock and it says 11:34 a.m. I walk to the door with a crying Carrie on my hip and open it to Ethan.

"Hey. I um... I bought you some clothes and stuff." He shoved a duffle bag in my face and just stood there.

"Im not a charity case." I told him in a very small voice.

"Danmit. Just take the danm bag Karlie! Lord knows you need it." I take the bag and mumble a thank you and try to close the door but he stops me. "I can watch her while you take a shower. You do take showers right?" When I didnt answer he came in the house and looked around. "You live here?" I just ignored him and started walking to my room. "Oh! Karlie I have some foods in the bag so you might to put them away." I roll my eyes and put all the junk food away in the kitchen. Thats all he had was junk foods and soda.