Be yourself

I will not make the same mistakes that you did.

I was laying in bed napping until I heard a pounding knock on my door.

I got up and unlocked my door, then opened it. 

Liberty. She was looking at me. 

"What the fuck is this!?" Liberty yelled. 

"Huh?" I asked.

She grabbed my arm and pointed to my bloody sleeve.

"Oh , uh, I don't know." I said.

"Why is there a knife on your bed!? It's bloody!" She asked.

"Oh, uh, I have no clue." I said.

"Did you cut yourself?" She asked.

"No, I found the knife and I was trying to wipe the blood off it because I smashed a big mosquito with it." I said.

"I don't know whats going on, but when you figure it out, you can talk to me again. " She said.

I let her leave. I have nothing. Nobody. My mom lives with me but she is never home. Shes out at work or her friends. I am here alone.

I go for a walk and while I'm walking, I see one of my neighbors, Hassen.

"Hey, Hassen." I say.

"Hey, Jessica. Did you hear the news?" He asked.

"What? What news?" I asked.

"Theres a party tonight at Jordans house." He said.

"Jordans having a party. For what? Hasn't he gotten into enough trouble?" I asked.

"His birthday."Hassen said and then he walked away yelling, " I hope you can come, Honey!" 

I have to go. I have to.

I go home and I assume I'll just go to Jordans and the party should be on right? So I dress in a short green layered dress with a black bow in the middle. I walk over to his party. I don't see Max so I'm in luck.

I see a lot of people though. Some are from our school. Some our graduated since last year or 2 years ago. I find Jordan standing in a corner drinking while watching people.

"Hey, nice party." I said.

"Hey, Hun." He says.

He puts his arm around me but I don't mind because hes really cute! He has dark skin and short black hair. He's a little taller than me about 2 inches maybe 1 and a half. He looks at me in the eyes. He leans in and I back up. He hands his drink to some random person and asks me to dance. I think , " Hey its his birthday! Why not? Hes only 2 years older than me. He is turning 18." So, I say," Sure." 

We dance a little. Than he gives me a cute spin and he tilts me back he leans in to kiss me but I try to stop him but he still manages to give me a kiss. Then, people say "Oooooooh. " And I'm like what? I didn't kiss him? Then, Jordan tilts me up and I see Max. He has his jaw dropped and looking at us like everybody else. Gosh I wish I could just kill jordan. 

"No, Max! It's not what it looks like! The freak kissed me, I didn't kiss him back! I pulled away!" I yelled.

Max marched off and home. I punched jordan in the face and ran home crying. I slammed my bedroom door shut and ran over to my knife and grabbed it. I broke down, completely. I started cutting. It ws really bad. I passed out and had a hard fall to the floor.

I woke up in the hospital the next morning and Scott was there right next to my bed.

"Is this true?" He asked.

"What?" I asked.

"Our you having my thing?" He asked.

"It's not a thing."I said rolling my eyes.

"It can't be mine." He said.

"Want a damn dna test!?" I asked yelling. "I'm not taking you back just because were having a  baby." I said.

"I don't want you!" He yelled, " I want to be a part of my babys life though. " He said.

"Ugh. You piss me off. Did you know that?" I asked irritated.

"You'll be lucky if you get through liberty." He said.

Than he left the room and liberty came marching in and slapped me in the face lightly. 

"Wth Liberty!" I yelled.

" Why are you cutting!?" She asked yelling.

"I'm sorry, it's been going on for a while now. I tried to stop but.....but...I couldn't.....because..." I started crying. 

I looked at my arm. 

" I guess it was deeper than I thought." I laughed. Why the hell did I laugh? I don't even know.

"This is not a joke Jessica!" Liberty yelled. "Why did you fucking do this!?" She asked angry.

"I....I....Just...." I  started crying again. 

"We'll talk about this when your ready." Liberty said now calm.

"Okay." I said.

Then I got taken home. I went to sleep when got home. 

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This is a long one(:

-M.P.~<3~