Summer Love (Short Story)

SL Part 6

SUMMER LOVE PART 6

SBRINA'S POV

I woke up with my puffy eyes. I hope this will end soon.  Pagbaba ko, bigla akong nagutom nung nakita ko yung naka handa sa mesa so, kumain na agad ako. I felt something weird kaya tumigil ako sa pagsubo and I saw them, all of them, staring at me. Kaya ayaw kong sabihin sa kanila eh. Sabi pa nga nila kung ano ba daw ang magagawa nila to help me, I said, they have ro act normal, like the old times. We played uno cards, scrabble and taguang tsinelas and tagu taguan. I cant believe that I'll forget about Mico, i'll forget about pain for a few hours.

Nabigla na lang ako nung nag alarm yung phone ko and I found out na 4 pm na, 1 hour to go and I'll be facing Mico. I fixed myself and pumunta na ako sa mango tree. I was 20 minutes early and I am shaking. Parang mas masakit pag sa kanya nanggaling, mas masakit ng ilang beses.  I know this will hurt a lot, but I shall face it. it's for the better. Maybe a more pain would help me stop this fantasies.

Hindi nagtagal, dumating na siya. I felt my heart jumped when I saw him. I have the urge to hug him. I missed him so much. When I saw his smile, I cant help myself compare this smile he flashes right now with the smile he's wearing in the lake. I brushed away the thoughts and flash a smile.

"Hi baby" sabi niya at saka ako hinapit sa bewang at siniil ng halik. How I wish his kisses were full of love. I responded. His kisses confirmed how he felt towards me, nothing. Its just a kiss, not a kiss which is full of love. I break the kiss at tumingin sa baba dahil konting konti na lang iiyak na ako. I hold back the tears that is warning to fall. 

Not now, please. Not now.

"May problema ba?" Napaigtad ako nung hinawakan niya yung pisngi ko. "Are you okay?" Tanong niya.

"Y-yeah. C-can we talk" sabi ko at pinipigilang huwag umiyak.

"Ok. About what?" he said.

"Can we talk somewhere else?" I said ignoring his question. He nodded at nakikita ko sa mata niya ang pagkalito. Nauna na akong luamakad at pumunta sa kubo na pinagtambayan dati nila Kuya Mark. Speaking of them, hindi ko na din sila masyadong nakakasama simula nang maging kami ni Mico.

Umupo ako dun sa part na kita yung araw, kita yung dagat. He sat beside me and I move a little, I move away from him. He's throwing me weird looks but i ignored it. Malalaman niya din sooner or later.

" I missed you." Really? You did missed me, Mico? Kaya pala hindi you're ignoring my texts and not answering my calls. I want to tell him that, but instead, i just gave him a faint smile.

"Dont you miss me?" He said and held my hand. I fliched at first pero hinayaan ko na lang. I must savor this moment. This will be the last time I'll feel his touch. This will be the last time I'll look into his eyes. 

And knowing that this would be the last makes me weak.

"Of course I missed you" I said silently. A still silence covered us at naiiyak ako. I have to speak pero hindi ko alam kung anog sasabihin ko. HIndi rin ako makapag isip ng maayos dahil hawak hawak niya ang kamay ko. Pwede bang doon na lang yung kamay niya? 

"Do we have a problem?" He asked

"Kamusta na ang requirements mo?" I said, ignoring again his question. 

"O-okay naman. Patapos na " Why did you stutter? Instead of looking at me, you looked away. Why Mico?

"That's good to hear." Sabi ko.

"Yeah.." I want to laugh when I heard him sighed in relief. 

"Ako lang ba"?" tanong ko. This is it Sabrina. There's no turning back.I know it's suicide but ayokong umasa. Yeah, I'm still hoping na baka mahalin niya din ako kami kahit alam kong malabo.