Summer Love (Short Story)

SL Last Part

SUMMER'S LOVE PART 7

SABRINA'S POV

Days came and I barely come out of my room. Kung ano ano na nga daw ang ginagawang palusot nila Ate lei kila lola. Mas ayokong malaman nila lola kung anong itsura ko ngayon. My eyebags nako and ang putla putla ko na kasi hindi ako lumalabas ng kwarto. Dinadalhan na lang ako nila kuya ng pagkain dito. And ngayon, ngayon na lang ulit ako makakalabas kasi ngayon na ang uwi namin sa Manila. I'll probably miss everyone here especially him. Hanggang ngayon ang sakit sakit padin lalo na every night at naalala ko yung mga oras na kasama ko siya, it hurts like hell when I thought we wont be the same again. Right now, I'm writing a letter for him. pathetic right? but for the last time I want to let him know how much I love him.

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Mico, 

 

                              First of all, I want to say how much sorry I am for the words I've said. I write you this letter to say sorry, thank you and goodbye. Yes, I'm trying to accept it, little by little. Sorry for the slap, too. I should've done that. I know, I wouldnt be like this If I wouldnt let my world revolve about you. It's partly my fault to be hurt like this. I'm so sorry Mico. 

                           Second, thank you. Thank you for all the wondeful memories. Those are treasurable.  Thank you for letting me in your world for a short time. Kahit na extra lang ako, Happy is an understatement to what I feel when I'm with you. If time would turn back, i'd still pick being with you and let me feel all of this. Maybe it's worth it.  I dont know but you made me feel special. Am i special to you, Mico? Kahit na friend lang or childhood bestfriend, am I special? Do I have a space in your heart? I'm sorry for asking you all of this. I'm not asking you to be come back, I just want to know. Thank you again Mico.

                          And lastly, Goodbye. Goodbye Mico, goodbye baby. Sorry for calling you that. But for the last time, please let me. Please allow me to make you feel how much I love you. Goodbye my baby, I'll miss you. i'll miss you laugh, your scent, you warm hug that made me feel safe, your voice, your kisses that brings butterflies in my stomach, you. I'll miss every bit of you Mico. Goodluck to you and your studies. I hope in time we'll be okay and be friends. Be happy Mico. I love you, I always have and always will.

 

                                                                                                                                            -Sabrina

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Pagkatapos kong isulat yung letter, nilagay ko na yung letter sa envelope. I gave it to Ate lei and told her to give that to him. Mabuti naman dahil pumayag siya, kahit na galit siya kay Mico. Actually, all of them are mad at him. Natatawa nga ako kasi ako yung nasaktan, sila yung galit. But of course I appreciate their concern. Kahit na hindi ako swerte ngayon sa lovelife, I have my family who loves me no matter what. I can still say how lucky I am.

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This is it. Asa airport na kami and nandito lahat sila para ihatid kami, except for lolo and lola kasi masama daw yung pakiramdam. I'll miss this wonderful place. I'll miss him. I hope he's doing well. I wish him happiness. I know he's happy. Kahit na hindi ako yung nagbibigay ng happiness na yun sa kanya, I'm happy to know that he is.

Later on, tinawag na yung flight number namin. I pouted. Ang saya saya pa naman ng kwentuhan namin. de bale, magkikita pa naman kami this Christmas. Niyakap ko na silang lahat and nung si kuya Paul na yung yayakapin ko he hugged me tight. o\Oo nga pala, hindi ko nakwento sa inyo na nung nalaman niya, nagtampo siya sakin. Parang wala daw kaming pinagsamahan. Hahaha, pag naalala ko yun natatawa talaga ako. back to what I am saying, he hugged me tight tapos sabi niya pag nakita daw niya ako na ganito pa din ako, iuuntog daw niya ako sa muscles niya. I'm happy we're okay now. We bid our goodbye to them. Kinagat ko yung dila ko para hindi ako maiyak. Pero, I did. butu hindi nila napansin

 Eto na talaga. It's Goodbye Mico na talaga. Kahit na mabigat sa loob kong umalis dito, I have to. It's for the both of us. For him, to be happy and for me, to forget. I hope I can forget. I dont know here to start. Parang, back to zero lahat. Isa lang ang alam ko, I know that I love him. Yun lang. I dont know how to forget the best I ever had. Kahit na wala akong ico compare sa kanya, I know he's the best. But I hope someone will love me as much as I loved mico. I hope there's someone out to there to keep me believe in love after all of this. 

Yeah, siguro nga Summer Love lang. Exclusively for summer lang. Not for any other seasons. But this is the best summer. Kahit na pangalis lang ako ng 'boredom' niya. somehow he made me feel special. Kung yung feeling na yun is for a friend, I'd still thank him. i'll thank him for letting me into his life for a short period of time. And this Summer love, maybe will serve as a lesson for me to love myself, too. To not let myself love someone so much and letting my world revolve to someone who doesnt tell me and make me feel he loves me. 

I feel the plane take off and once again, I'm leaving this place without my heart and I dont know If I can have it back.