Listen up

chapter 2

Ryans P.O.V. 

After Ronnie told me where Derek might be i went out of the bus and walked around to try and find him. I dont understand something though, he's always acting really weird around me and blushing. whenever i accidentally brush against him he looks away and just plain avoids me. I hate it honestly because, well, I kinda maybe like him. Wait what? I-I cant like him hes a boy he's DEREK. I saw Ron walking towards me and i cracked a smile at him. 

"Hey man, have you seen Derek lately?" I yelled to him.

"Yeah, he's on the bus still. why?" i looked at him a little mad.

"Okay man thanks, thats means Ronnie lied to me, that asshole."

Ron shrugged and walked off, i walked back to the bus wondering why the hell he'd lie to me. i wawndered towards the bus i opened the door to Ronnies room and was about to lecture him when i saw something that broke my heart into pieces. Ronnie and Derek were making out on his bed. they broke apart and looked at him derek looked just sad, guilty he looked like he hated himself for doing that and Ronnie he just looked guilty he knew, he was the only one who knew i liked Derek. That bastard knew and still did it! I trusted him and he betrayed me he was supposed to talk to him see how he feels about me and instead he just fucking kissed him. I ran out of the room the quickest i possibly could so they wouldnt see my face. i was hurt, betrayed, angry, and tears were running down my face like a waterfall. 

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ive been sitting in some old part of the venue we're supposed to play tonight for at least an hour or two. ive just been sitting there, mainly crying thinking about how happy Derek probably is with Ronnie and how they're probably glad im gone. The drum tech will take over for me tonight if they dont find me and honestly i hope they dont i wanna just stay here. I dont think i could stand hearing Ronnie sing or just seeing Derek at this point. I know they're looking for me, at first i could only heard Derek and Ronnie yelling my name but then i started hearing more and more people so the entire place is on a Ryan Seaman lookout. nobodys found me though thank god i didnt want to be found i just wanted to skip this concert. 

     "Ryan!" i hear a voice cry out somewhere close to me, i honestly thought nobody would check this part of the place. i hear their footsteps get closer and closer then see my guitarist Jacky walk around the corner at first he didnt see me but once he did his face lit up like christmas day and he almost shouted to everyone he found me. As he opened his mouth though i jumped up and put my hand over his mouth to shut him up.

"Ryan, what the hell man? where have you been everyones worried about you?" he said once i uncovered his mouth.

" i dont want to be found Jacky, ive been here since Ronnie and Derek..."

"Ronnie and Derek what?"

my eyes started to water again and jacky leaned in and gave me a hug.

"Ryan its okay, what happened?" he whispered in my ear in his british accent. Inbetween sobs i answered him.

"They-they kissed, Ronnie he even knew i liked him and he kissed him, he-"

"Wait what? Ry calm down a little and explain start over"

"I like Derek, and the only one who knew was Ronnie and even thouugh he knew he kissed Derek, they both dont care about me or my feelings just each other!" jacky looked a little lost in though before he just hugged me closer and just held me as i sobbed into his shoulder. 

"Ryan do you want to play the set tonight?" i quickly shook my head no and he nodded "okay come on lets walk to the bus ill tell everyone we found you and youre sick so you have to rest and we'll find someone to fill in, everythings gonna be allright and Ronnie and Derek are just being idiots, okay?"

He smiled a little at me and i did a weak attempt at one back. We walked back to the bus while Jacky talked about everyone frantically running around trying to find me, apparently it was pretty comical to wake up to. we walked in the bus and everyone just so happened to be there Derek, Ronnie, and Ron. when we walked in everybody leaped up to say something to me. Jacky pushed me behind him and basically told them off before they could.

 "Ronnie, Derek dont you dare say a word to either of us this is your fault, and Ron please usher these two assholes away Ryan isnt playing tonight get a tech to fill in i' be at soundcheck in a minute." Ronnie and Dereks faces fell and Ron lead them out of the bus.

 We walked back to the bunks and i climbed in mine and poked my head out to say thanks to Jacky.

" its no problem man i just wanted to help you out and Ry?'

"yeah?"

"well I want you to know ive got a slight crush on you.." he fell silent and looked at the ground. I got out of the bunk and stood in front of him. i grabbed his chin and lifted his head up to face me and smiled a little before kissing him lightly, he was suprised at first then kissed back we broke apart to get air and smiled at each other. i pecked his lips once more and whispered. 

"dont be late for soundcheck," he nodded still smiling and walked off the bus, i went back into my bunk and stared at the wall for a while thinking about things, about Jacky, about Derek.