I was watching this video on YouTube. So basically the girl was telling a story about how she visited some place to meet up with an old good friend for the weekend. She had sat down with her friend and they looked through a couple journals from when they were teenagers. She explained that it was really nice to kind of look back at the past and being a teenager again, and how as soon as they closed the journal she had abruptly realized she wasn't a teenager anymore, and she was a 20-year old sitting behind a camera making videos for people.
This really hit me.
I.. guys...
What's it going to be like when I feel that way? When I'm 20-years old and I'm working in a job and I'm not enjoying life as a kid anymore. I'm not living with my parents, watching tv together. I'm sitting at a desk paying taxes and worrying about what I'm going to do with the rest of my life. Not obsessing over Sherlock, or enjoying times with my friends, or living through the stuff that teenagers go through and.. and...
I recently(meaning like months ago) turned 13, meaning technically I'm officially a teenager. I just kinda realized it feels like my life is going by too fast. I wasn't happy about how I was a year older, I was just focused on the fact that I am a year older, and before I know it I'm gonna be going to college and graduating and having a job and oh my gosh GAHHHHH
Not only that, but what if I'll look back on my life when I am an adult, and think I didn't spend it properly, like I wasted it focused on the fact that I'm gonna be an adult at some point? I DON'T WANT TO DISAPPOINT MY OLDER SELF!
Do any of you feel this way? You're just hit with the feeling that you are getting older, and you just down't wanna grow old anymore?
I mean, I know that age is just a number, and blah blah blah I grow old but I don't have to grow up or whatever
but still.
I'm just gonna continue being on my computer huddling in the dark thinking about where my life is going so yeah.
~Frosty
