Okie, here's my first rant:
So... I have a couple things that I wish weren't true about myself, but they just happen to be, and I'm going to express it on this beautiful chapter of randomness.
First thing: I really hate asking people for help. Hate hate hate hate HATE it. I feel useless...
Even though in the back of my mind I'm like, it would be better for you if you just asked, Frosty... You could actually end up succeeding in life with this information.
I cannot do it. It just makes me feel so weird...
Like, I won't know how much money to give someone when I'm shopping with my friends(which is practically the only time I go shopping) I ask my friend and then they shrug, and I groan and roll my eyes, and then they ask me to ask the cashier, and I automatically say NO.
I was at hobby lobby with my friend once, and I was looking for this little thing cuz I wanted to do a mini craft with her for when she came to my house, and I ended up pulling her around the entire store, trying to find it. She kept asking me what I was looking for... and Just would continuously answer no, I know where it is and I can find it.
I ended up telling her with like the last five minutes we had, and she found some, and we left with me feeling REALLY embarrassed.
It's like my mind wants to prove that I know what I'm doing and I'm not just some kind of shy, awkward person that doesn't talk to anyone.
The other night, my parents suggested that I should email my teacher because I was having some trouble with some stuff for the midterm test and I was practically in tears because I just couldn't do it.
Tell me... is this a problem? Love to know...
Second thing: This is definitely true with a lot of people.
I have a very large and spacious personal bubble. I really get frustrated and pissed when someone is really close to me, like I can feel their breath on my neck.
I snap at them and tell them to go away, when really I just mean for them to scoot back like a foot or so, just so I can have some air. When people are all up in my face I just cannot handle it.
I don't want to have such a big personal bubble, because I absolutely love hanging out and talking with my friends. I really do.
But when someone's all up in my grill, it will not be that way. It just won't.
I will post another rant tonight, and then I think I may go to bed... This ranting(or whatever you want to call it) is wearing me out xD
~Ms. Frost
