Tanabata No Monogatari

Chapter 8- Nearly lost everything

Okay, so, by the request of Jonas himself, I speed up the update because he wants everyone to know the 'juicy' things about us. YOU OWE ME JONAS! Don't worry, next time, I'll try to make him write all these instead of me. Hihi~ 

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-Jonas' POV-

Should I? Or shouldn't I? 

These are the things that are swirling in my brain. I can't even decide if I should court her or not... I think I'm gonna lose my mind... 

What's happening to me? I don't want to hide my feelings any longer. But, it's aching my heart to suppress it. I was literally looking for an idea to court her. I may be a cold person, but this time, I need warmth and love... From her... 

I tried to me a man. But I get chicken on the latter part. Now I know, I'm made of Grade A chicken meat. However, I'm ready to open myself. But I get scared afterwards... I'm really scared.. I think twice everytime I try to think of a way. I want her. I don't want to lose her to anyone else.

The vibration of my phone broke my trace-like state on the wall. 

It' was from her. She's already heading home. 

I decided to confess. That day is today. I gave her the lyrics of a song. That song actually has a question at the end. If there's somebody who can tell that, I think of her. 

As I sent her the lyrics and praying for her to answer to my plea, my heart pounded on my chest. She's taking so long... Please... End my misery... Just asnwer me!! After what I think was 15 minutes, my phone vibrated. 

>> The song's sweet

That's it? Is she dense or something!? But, I'm still gonna try it. 

>> I love you. But, I'm not gonna expect that you'll love me back. If ever that you'll feel lonely, I will always stay beside you. Even though you will never love me. 

I don't really expect that she will return my feelings. She doesn't need to force herself to love me. If she loves me, then she should say it to me and end my freaking misery. And, I don't expect a rich kid like her to like or to fall for an average guy like me. 

For what seemed like 30 minutes or more, my phone pulsed. 

I never knew, that her answer would change everything. Okay, almost everything. 

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In the past few days, alot of people actually asked if I was inlove or what. They kept telling me I had this glow on me. Actually, yeah. I was inlove. I wanted that girl. She's been on my mind eversince. Mom even asked me what was going on with me because I kept glancing at my phone. I was just waiting for her text or something. Anything that is related from her. You know, I think I have a sort of addiction to her. 

I never answer when people ask me if I'm inlove. I want to shout 'yes' at the top of my lungs, but hey, I still want to keep the essense of 'cool'. I am a guy after all. 

The problem was, everyone kept tailing me. Even at the game. I don't want them. I want her. She's my Berserker. I'm her Trapper. I want to be her protector. 

Oh yeah. Before anything else, I want to share something about me to you guys. 

I was naturally a carefree person. I never even cared on what others would say. I really don't. I don't care. I am what I am.

But, before I went into an angel's arms, I landed in the dye in the wool devil. I thought everything in my life went fine.

But, I didn't have any idea that it would be the start of hell. A hell that I never imagined that existed. I was being chained for doing the things I love to do. 

Chains within. I thought I would never be free. Until I learned the truth behind it. 

I broke the chains that bind me, nearly killing that Devil. 

Until I became a demon myself.

That's how the Demon, The Bandit, started.

A sly Ranger who never relied on anyone, a real killing emerging in the Shadows. 

Whatever made him change, the angel will be the one who will give me freedom. 

His bow has landed many devastating arrows a warrior can ever imagine. His knife has been soaked with blood and grease... His vulcan has already reached the hottest temperature for being a trigger happy. 

Weilding a dark armor, that darkness is darker than the well-known dark places. Even the bravest warriors of Novus and even in real life won't enter and imagine the peril darkness of it all. 

He nearly lost his grip on Humanity, he nearly gave in to the darkness. He nearly lost his soul to the unholy power.

I live as a newbie's hero by day, a killer by night. I even tank hordes of monsters as a penance for my unholy sins. But that's in the gaming world. In the real one, I nearly lost my sanity when I got hurt. I've made acquaintances, some even exposed their heavenly goods to me. But I don't want those anymore. I got sick and tired of the same old garbage. 

To let myself be free, I shattered a glass with my fist. Letting it all inside my arm. Just to stop myself from doing something I shouldn't do. 

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Okay, so I knew I typed this a week ago, but unfortunately, we didn't have internet at the place we were staying at. Jonas' been staying with me and giving a few of his POVs :) 

Thank you for reading.. 

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