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today was my appointment for therapy and i really hope cameron doesn't come over.
as always I had no luck cameron came over twenty minutes after i woke up.
after i got ready, I grabbed my keys and began walking to the elevator. " where are we going today?" cameron asks as he trails behind me. "um i have a doctors appointment." i say nervously hoping he wouldn't know im lying.
he nods and we walk to my car. i put the directions in the gps and pay close attention to where i was going. cameron grabbed the aux cord and played the song Planet Paradise by Goldlink. i was shocked at the beginning because of what it said but i laughed it off.
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i signed into the office and took a seat by cameron. he was on his phone playing the Kim Kardashian game.
" Nisalette Aria Gonzales?" they called. cameron looks at me and smiles. i stand up and cameron trails behind me. "Nisalette?" he laughs with his eyebrows furrowed together. i nod and follow the woman to a room.
i was nervous that cameron was in the room, i didn't want to talk to the therapist while he was there.
the door opens and a young man walks in, he was in his late twetnties. he was extremely attractive. he had blonde hair, blue eyes and his face was perfectly structured. " hello im mr. meyer." his deep voice says. i sit on the love seat and got comfortable. "goodmorning mr.meyer , im nisa." i smile. he looks at me and also smiles. we were watching eachother but cameron "clears his throat." i glare at him and he shrugs.
" so nisa please tell me why you're here." mr.meyer says reaching out for me hand.
i allow him to take my hand but i look back at cameron. he seemed tense and i was nervous about talking about him in front of him.
i began telling mr. Meyer about what was going on and my history with cameron. i cried multiple times and mr.meyer was the only one to comfort me. cameron only stared at me. he seemed shocked at what i was saying about our past.
" the only thing i can say is you are confused. you like cameron but you are afraid to commit. you are afraid he'd hurt you but not in the way he used to but in a way that he might leave you heartbroken." mr.meyer says. there was a long pause, as i thanked him and blinked away the tears in my eyes. i have never been so confused.
i get up and run to my car. moments later cameron gets in the drivers seat and drives me back home. the drive was silent.
