The Forgotten Mate

I choose...

I don't want to be the second choice, the other women, I don't want to feel like I was last option, I want someone to choice me and love me so much that it would kill them to leave me. Greyson... we use to be childhood friends apart of me wanted him to be my mate cause he was the only one who understands me for who I am. How can someone who you used to love so much soon become a shadow of your past. Then nick came and shine light on my darkness within me, I don't know him but, feels like I have know him my whole life. I can't change the past, I can control my future. My life is controllable uncontrollable.

" you need to eat something. Its not good for the baby or yourself begin locked in this house all day." Nick trying once again to get me to leave the house. Im getting bigger, the baby is growing faster then normal wolf babies would. Meaning I have to choose someone and I know that when I do someones heart will be broken. This house seems to be my safe heaven, I don't to want to face the real world. I just look at nick then turn around facing the window. He sighs then leave like always, he never pushes me into something I don't want. Greyson comes very other day trying to get me to talk, but like every time i ask him to leave me be. I welcome the darkness inside me to blind me from the emptiness inside me. I have been in this room for days only getting up to eat or use the bathroom.

I was doing my normal thing, laying in bed, watching tv, eating ( thanks to the baby ), and begin alone. Then I hear a knock on the door, I wonder who it is... Greyson or Nick this time? A figure appears in the door way and slowly walks toward me. When the light hits the figure faces I see the person I would never thought would be here. " dad?" he smiles at me and comes closer to me. " hey cat." He seats down next to me and take the chips out of my hand and starts to eat them. I give him a weird look, why is he here?

"Mhm dad why are you here?" I ask and he just keeps on watching tv... okay then. We seat in peace for a while till he breaks it. " whats wrong cat?" He turns toward me to look at me in the eyes, looking into my dark soul. Im lost of words, I don't know how to explain it to him whats truly wrong with me. He keeps looking at me then he drops his gaze to my big baby bump. "may I?" I nod and lay flat  on my back and take his hand and place it in the bump. Just the small touch makes him smile and looks at me with teary eyes. " watch this." He looks back down on the baby bump and I close my eyes, begain singing.

"When the evening shadows and the stars appear,
And there is no one there to dry your tears,
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love.

I know you haven't made your mind up yet,
But I will never do you wrong.
I've known it from the moment that we met,
No doubt in my mind where you belong.

I'd go hungry; I'd go black and blue,
And I'd go crawling down the avenue.
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love.

The storms are raging on the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret.
The winds of change are blowing wild and free,
You ain't seen nothing like me yet.

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true.
Nothing that I wouldn't do.
Go to the ends of the Earth for you,
To make you feel my love
To make you feel my love"

Then the little creature kicked me telling me to sing again. I just laugh and opened my eyes to see not just my dad but, Nick and Greyson. The big guys had tears in their eyes from what they were seeing. My dad takes his hands off of my belly and looks into my eyes. " I know you're scared. This isn't what you plan for. You wanted a happy life with your mate and live happy ever after. But honey happy ever afters only happen in fairy tales. I understand your hurt, mad, upset, but you're stronger then you think. You can survive this." he then kisses my forehead and makes his way to the door before he leaves I stop him. " I forgive you." he smiles at me then nods leaving me to be alone with my mates.

I know what Im going to do...

" I want this baby." I tell them and nick looks down at the floor with deep sadness in his eyes. " however I don't want to be your mate Greyson." Then Greyson looks at me and hurt fills his whole face. " Greyson... I will always love you but, I can't breath when Im with you. I feel like there is no room for me to be with you. You found someone els that you love and care for. I have been so hurt and mad at you that I forgot what its like to breath of fresh air. to live. I know at the end of the day I have to choose one of you. So i'm not choosing anyone right now... i'm choosing myself. Im going to find away to have this baby and if I can be with Nick then great, but I have to do something for myself." Then I felt like everything I have been holding back was set free.