Kiss me, Not

May We Meet Again

"Well we had the talk. Apparently, there was this guy asking her out and..." Raven looked at her best friend and sighed, "Earth to Clarke!" Waving her hand.

She blinked a couple of times realising that she was zoning out again.

"Clarke come on. What's wrong? You've been awol for weeks. What's going on?"

I can't tell her. I cant. "She's" gonna kill me if I did.

"Nothing! So, what about this guy? Who's this guy? Octavia didnt mentioned anything at all!" Trying to act flabbergasted by the news.

Raven narrowed her eyes and continued, "she was afraid that if we found out who's the guy we're gonna freak out... Especially me, knowing I'm the "protective" one," rolling her eyes.

Clarke nodded digesting all the gist. "So who's this guy?"

The brunette heaved a heavy breath, "Lincoln."

"Lincoln?! 4-1 Lincoln? The bald?... The quarterback? Lexa's best friend? REALLY?!" Once again trying to act shocked. So far it has been going pretty well. Raven's buying it.

"I know! Oh man I knew something's fishy is going on with those two..." Shaking her head.

To Clarke this wasnt new, it had been 2 weeks since she caught the two love birds nestled in one of the booths of Grounder's cafe. Finding out that way made her feel disappointed because Octavia had been her best friend for as long as she can remember. The tiny girl begged her not to tell a soul and so she didnt. What made her wonder was whatever happened to her undying love for the other brunette.

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"OCTAVIA! WHAT THE HELL?!"

Octavia pulled Clarke outside the cafe leaving a confused Lincoln.

"Clarke..."

"You've got some explaining to do young lady."

The brunette sighed and wrung her fingers, still silent by the situation. It took her a moment to gather her thoughts until she managed to say a word.

"We were just hanging out, Clarke," she mumbled.

"Hanging out? Are you really? Is there something I should know about?" Clarke continued to ask.

"Clarke-"

"Does Raven know?"

"No!"

"Octavia..."

"Clarke... I've been crushing on her for ages. And you know I've been trying, really trying to get to her. To show her how I felt but she's..." shaking her head, "she's impossible. She still don't see it... But then graduation came... When I came to see you and Finn..."

Clarke gave her a confused look.

"Okay, you weren't there. I don't know where you went."

Clarke closed her eyes momentarily remembering that night. She walked off the opposite direction when Lexa left her. That night she found herself outside by the bleachers staring at the night sky until Raven scooted near her and told her what happened back in the gym. It was the moment that she saw Raven looking perturbed but decided not to question it and went to Mount Weather instead with the rest of her class.

"... So I went inside the nurse's office and found Finn wasn't there anymore and then there was Lincoln..." slowly diverting her eyes to the blue ones. "We got talking and then the rest was history."

"So Raven is over. What you felt for Raven was completely gone. Just like that?"

"No, Clarke. I love Raven and I think I will always love her. But what else can you do when the person you love doesn't even see you that way? After all this time, after all the given hints and flirts," shaking her head again, "Lincoln, Clarke is a better choice... I know – maybe – that I will regret this decision. But I have to take chances, Clarke. I can't be rooting for someone for so long, right? There's only so much I could give."