Still Undeniable

Trying Something New

*1 month later*
Camille's POV
It's been a month and so far things have been so confusing. I was diagnosed with depression and it was a daily battle trying to force myself to be happy around my babies. Jasen was still in therapy and I haven't heard from him nor been to see him. I didn't feel bad about that though because he was the reason I was now taking two or three pills a day just to smile. My kids were getting older and they noticed things I thought they didn't even pay attention to. Just the other day Jason and Jamilla asked me what where those pills for , I wanted to say so badly mommy's happiness in a bottle but I refrained.

"Momma can we go see daddy today , it's his birthday", Jada said

"Yea ma and we made him stuff", Junior said holding up all kinds of cards and pictures they'd colored for him

"I'll see will Nanny take you guys , ok ?", I said kissing Junior's forehead

"No mommy we wanna go with you", Jasmine said pouting

"Ok fine, Go get me the hair bucket so I can comb your hair", I told them and they all ran off except Jase

"You know momma you don't have to go if you don't want", He said coming next to me and picking Jalayah up since she was fussy

"Its ok baby I want to go and make your daddy's day special", I said picking up Jaleeyah

"Ok momma", Jase said before handing me Jalayah and walking out of the room

Jasmine came back with the hair bucket and I combed her hair first into two puff balls with white bows , then Jada's whose hair was naturally curly so I just stuck a bow on the side , Jamilla had her hair in a long ponytail since I had flat ironed her hair yesterday, and I just out matching head bands on Jaleeyah and Jalayah.

"Go and put on your white polo t shirts and khaki shorts", I told them all

"Ok mommy", They said

"Now send the boys in", I told them

It was stressful raising ten kids alone but it was beautiful watching them as they grew into their own individual person. My boys were always worse than my girls when it cane down to getting dressed. I pulled Junior's dreads up into a high ponytail and braided it around , brushed Jase's curls , and the same for Jason and Jaden but Jaden was growing the little broccoli top so I used the sponge to twist it up , and I put Jamari's into two braids since I never took him to get a haircut.

"White shirts and Khaki shorts", Jasmine told Jase when she came into the room

"She always thinks she the boss momma"Jason said making me laugh

"Cut it out and go get dressed", I told him

"What shoes momma", Jada asked

"Your sperry's", I told them

"Help your sisters", I told Jamilla

I got the twins dressed and then it was time for me , I pressed my hair and wore it bone straight with a middle part which was becoming my favorite look. I decided to match my babies so I wore a white polo t shirt and some Khaki shorts that I thought were too short but I was too lazy to look for more. I put on my sperry's light make up and some lip gloss with my gold hoop earrings and my gold fossil watch. We were all set. I put the twins in their carriers and grabbed their dialer bag and headed out of my room.