Alone (boyXboy)

Wake up please

~~Jonas POV~~

It's been 4 weeks and toshi still hasn't woken up, I've cried these 4 weeks more than I've cried in my life, Milo had to leave for work and school, I couldn't bring myself to leave toshi's side, the doctors don't think he'll ever wake up, my father came and tried to make me leave but I wouldn't, I can't, my love is laying here in a coma, I just want to see his beautiful eyes open, his skin is pale and he's cold, my chest tightens and my breath hitches, I feel a sob coming, I hold it in and try to calm down, I hold toshi's hand, I just want him to be awake, I let out a soft sob.

"Please toshi wake up soon..!" I say to him, the memory of his head hitting the ground is burned into my brain, I can't stop thinking about it, I put my head on the bed, I look at the door when Milo walks in.

"I left school my head hurt" he says to me, he sits in his chair.

"Karou...um left.." Milo says awkwardly to me.

"He..left?" I ask, Milo nods

"I called his mother to ask her something and she said he moved to Paris to start a new life again" he says softly he's staring at the ground, I didn't care, karou did this he put toshi into a coma, I'm never going to forgive him. Milo tells me everyday I should go outside and go home. I shake my head.

"I'm not leaving here until he wakes up" I say stubbornly,Milo sighs and shakes his head sadly.

_-Milo POV-_

I couldn't stand the feeling of overwhelming sadness in the room, Jonas looks defeated, his green eyes aren't bright anymore they look dead and sad, he looks so depressed, he looks pale and sick, I look at toshi, I almost cry, he looks dead, his chest barely rises and falls, his head is tilted to the side, I don't know how much of this I can't take.

***1 month later***

Toshi hasn't woken up, Jonas looks like he's lost all hope, I get him to drink stuff but he won't eat, I got him to go outside a few times but he complained the whole time, I feel so bad for him, he loves toshi a d it kills me to think that he might never wake up.

~~Toshi POV~~

It's black, all black I can't see anything I can't feel anything, it's like I'm floating I feel something, it's like...soft and loving, I want to feel it more, it comforts me, I have to know what it is, then I remember, Jonas, Jonas the man I love, Jonas the man who would do anything for me, it's him it must be him, I want to open my eyes, I try it's hard I feel so weak, I want to yell but no sound comes from my mouth, I try again, I force my body to open my eyes, I want to see Jonas, I open my eyes, my eyelids feel heavy, I blink slowly, I feel something in my hand, I slowly look down, it's Jonas's hand, I look around more to see Milo in a chair, I close my eyes it's hard to stay awake, I take in a huge breath, Jonas moves his head, he opens his eyes, i feel as though I'm going to cry, he looks horrible, he looks at me and sees my eyes open.

"Oh my god..toshi!?" He says, he sits up and looks at me, all I can do is nod slowly, tears gather in his eyes, he rubs his cheek on my hand.

"I thought I lost you to-toshi" his voice cracks, I can't hold it in, tears stream down my face, he's here, he's with me, I look to see Milo awake, he's looking at me in shock.

"Oh my gosh" Milo bolts up and scrambles to the bed. I'm tired, I can't remember anything, all I remember is the world going black and the feeling of floating, I try to talk but all that comes out is a squeak.

"Baby don't talk if it hurts" kiss says to me, he gently touches my cheek, I sigh and lean my cheek on his hand, i move my hand slowly to his body, my body is tired and weak, I put my hand on his chest where his Heart is, I feel his heart beating and I smile a tiny bit, it feels good to feel his heart beating, he reacts by taking his free hand and putting it over mine on his chest, he sighs softly like he's relived, Milo smiles and calls for the doctor, they believe it will take another few weeks for me to be strong enough to talk and walk, I need help to sit up but I feel better after eating and getting a cup of water, I want to look outside, I point to the window and balcony, Jonas nods and picks me up, he walks to the window and sits me on a big window sill, I look outside, there's some snow on the ground but not much I smile and put my hand on the glass it's cold but I like it, I feel Jonas put his arms around my waist, I sigh and lean into him, his body is warm, he kisses my neck and behind my ear.

"God I missed you" he mumbles, he kisses all over on my neck earning a soft moan from me, I wish I could tell him to keep going, but I can't, I whimper as he pushes my body against the window gently, the coldness of the glass feels good, he kisses my cheek and I relax my body again, I look up into his eyes, he's looking down at me, I can't take it, I lean up and kiss him, he gently lifts my chin and kisses me back I wish I was stronger so I could get more of him he breaks the kiss, I whine and he kisses my forehead, I suddenly get a pounding pain in my head, I grab onto Jonas so I don't fall over, it's hurts so bad! What is this? I whimper and tears roll down my cheeks.

"He-help....I..t..hur-ts..." Is all i can say,  Jonas sets me in bed and gets a nurse, she gives me a pill and I take it, after a while the pain goes away, but my body is sore, I sniff and rub my eyes, Jonas hugs me and I feel better

"I wish I could take the pain away my love" Jonas whispers in my ear, I shiver and nod slowly, I fall asleep in his arms, God I love him with all my heart