Anonymous ~PHANFICTION~

Chapter 9

Dan's PoV

I feel terrible, i love him, i love him with all my heart, I hope he doesn't find out what happened between cat and I. it was a silly mistake i was led on, I'm not even straight I'm gay I'm fully gay not bisexual, why did i do it.

I've had a crush on phil since i met him, we've been friends since year 7 and we're now going into college, he has been my best friend for so many years and I've been his secret admirer. I've had girlfriends, hell I've had loads but they have been a cover up you know? to kind of hide that I'm gay. I've never loved any of them or had feelings for any of them like i have for phil. But in our town, gay was bad. Being gay was one of the most disgusting things ever, everybody hated it. But i don't mind getting beaten up if it means being with phil.

"so phil, where are you going to go, since ya know.." i didn't want to remind him of his dad kicking him out. i turned around to face the raven haired boy clinging onto my waist "Oh dan, i honestly don't know anymore" i looked into his eyes and put my hand on his shoulder "you can always stay round mine" i mumble "can i dan?" "yeah course" i smiled gently "oh dan you're such a good friend" friend.. FRIEND that word, jesus i didn't want to be his 'FRIEND' i wanted to be his other half, his lover, i wanted him to kiss me like he used to kiss cat.

i pulled away from his embrace coz i felt like i was going to cry again "come on then lets go home" 

we started to walk home when i heard my phone ping i looked down to see it was cat "who's texting you" phil said as he went to look at my phone "oh umm nobody"

From: cat 10:00 am

"come see me at 12am or you're pretty little lover boy will get it, meet me at the park"

i ignored it and put it back in my pocket "just EE sending me them shitty texts that mean nothing" i said forcing a fake laugh out  "oh i always get them they're so annoying, have i told you.. i think i have a stalker?"  "No, i don't think you've mentioned it, what do you mean you have a stalker?" "well their is this person, they call themselves anonymous and they keep texting me and shit.. ah its nothing its just weird ya know?" my eyes widened "oh um, yeah sounds pretty creepy" 

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Quite a few hours past and phil and i were sitting on my bed "uhm, i know this is a bit of an awkward question, but do you want to share the same bed, as we don't really have another bed,  i mean i can sleep on the sofa if you want" "no, its fine dan we can share the same bed" i looked at my clock and it was 11:28pm "hey phil, its late I'm gonna get some sleep." "same I'm knackered" i grabbed a black baggy top out of my draw and took my top off i saw phil look me up and down and i turned around and put my top on over my head, while putting my top on my hair got messy i slowly pulled my jeans down and folded them, luckily the top was long enough to cover my boxers. i turned back around to see phil awkwardly looking at me "you okay?" i questioned while walking towards him "well i don't really have an pjs" "you can sleep in your boxers?" OMG WHAT AM I THINKING IM NOT TRYING TO MAKE HIM THINK IM SOME TYPE OF PEVERT "okay" phil said a smirk appearing but he was obviously trying to hide it i watched him take his jeans and top off and i slowly pulled the covers back and slipped into the bed "Hey phil do you wanna watch a film or something?" "sure. what you got?" "anything they are all over their" i pointed to the pile of dvds and watched phil walk over their. i looked up and down his body slowly i started to look at his arse but i stopped myself just incase he caught me

i watched him  slowly turn the tv on and put the film in and i watched him slip into bed next to me "what film is it?" "love actually" "oh, thats a good film" i started to blush and i don't know why. 

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phil had fallen asleep with his arm around me and his head in my neck. dam i just wanted to kiss this boy but i couldn't again. the time was now 11:50pm i slipped slowly out of the bed  put my  jeans on and left.

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I saw somebody wearing a hoodie and tapped their shoulder "cat what do you want?" she turned around and she has no makeup on, oh god she looks terrible maybe she was ill or something? "have sex with me one last time and i won't tell phil you did have it with me while we we're together.." 

i stood in shock.. i love him i don't want him to find out he loved her.. i was his best friend but i don't want to do that again..