My poems

Our love was gone

It was then I knew

When you stopped holding my hand as tight

Or your grip around my waist wasn't as warm when we kissed

That morning I woke up an you weren't next to me in bed

You had already had your coffee and left

You never gave me a kiss goodbye, or you never woke me up

That night you slept on the couch and I walked out from our bedroom to ask you what was wrong, you said nothing

You looked at your hands as though someone had touched them that was as filthy as a bathroom floor

I realised I was the last one to touch your hands

You finally came to bed

I had fallen asleep

You didn't grab my shoulder as you laid next to me with distance

I woke up screaming and crying, breathing as I gasped for air

You barely moved

Where we your strong arms to hold me tight until I calmed down and fell back asleep?

I got up and found my medication, I hadn't needed it for as many months as I knew you

I walked back in and laid down, staring at the ceiling, feeling my cheeks stay wet with tears

Why are you being so cold with me..?

I stare at the ceiling and can't sleep as the time ticks, and eventually I'm jolted up by the alarm

You just wake up and look at me

I say good morning and I love you and you just mumble "love you.."under your breath and go into the shower, I sit on the counter and wait for you, singing our song

You didn't sing your part

I can't help but tear up and softly speak

"Why aren't you smiling at me? Or holding me? Why haven't you touched me..? It's like you're disgusted by me...like you stopped loving me."

You opened the shower curtain and looked at me, then grabbed your towel and stepped out, shampoo still in your hair

When you said my name it wasn't as loving as it used to be...it hurt a lot

"My dear..yesterday morning, I looked at you...I just...I didn't feel the way I always have...I have lost emotions for you...I'm sorry"

I felt a knife go through my heart and I start crying then run out....and just run far away...

You never came to look for me

I got lost

I died..